Exploring the Inside

I wanted to do a reply to my darling's blog straight away after she posted her "watever" drink. Oh well I bought "Anything" to go with it but I was blocked with alot of work to post it straight away until after all the busy things has been over. Anyway this is the entry to reply to :P http://goldensummer.multiply.com/journal/item/17/Colourful_monday Lol....just a joke...I hope that she will see this LOL!!! -Synn

I'm sitting in my girlfriend's house writing today's entry...firstly... HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAWN! I'm thinking about today's bbq...it's quite nostalgic. Seems like the bbq i had years back with my secondary schoolmates, whom almost all I have forgotten. Well it was a grouping of new friends for now. A bbq... BBq...maybe it is because i have never had a really good bbq in my life...well perhaps it is because there is never a bbq that is really fun in my life...i was laughing today, smiling and socialising, but it was never...fun... I never really ate in bbqs come to think of it...it was never once that I really ate until I throw up or something. Today there were things that i was pissed off with, and also things that made me laugh truly...and also a negative demostration of Mario Kart DS with changchun and his gf...Throwing turtle shells backwards? Rings a bell to me...and it's really something that I have never done for a long time...it made me...wanted to go ba

Communication is a wonderous thing. Why do I feel that way you may ask. Without communication, nothing can be conveyed from one person to another (other then the person has 6th sense). I was thinking about it alot. About what is happening to my life and to the people around me. I see activities, i see alot of activities. I see money being earned, and why am I still stucked getting my paycheck instead of seeing commissions with tens of thousands of dollars. Frankly speaking, even if I say that i'm numb to such sights because of my stay in a real estate agency, I still feel a slight jealousy. However, it comes with a great price and on the other hand again, is "HOW YOU SEE IT". I found out that I have been using this phrase excessively. Maybe because of my friends, they are using this quite often to me as well. Oh well, tens of thousands of dollars...that sounds too good to be true but the agent has so many hidden costs that i began to feel that..."HEY, wait a minute&q

I have been doing alot of Maths...I believe i have never did so much maths in my schooldays about 10 years ago. It is a nightmare...i mean maths has never cause me so much terror back then then i feel now. I am actually motivated to do it lately...I am glad that i took my maths classes seriously back then...oh well lol.. :P btw, due to the recent property boom, work is terrifying as well. I had never see so many people eager to print things for publicity in my shop before. I am like serving clients madly lately. I was like, hold your horses mate...i believe I made alot of people feel that I am not serious in my job just because I delayed their things abit... Made me quite sad when there are clients that tell me that...I am doing work non-stop to earn such remarks from them...god damn it...but i am not angry. If fact I am thankful to the individuals who made the remark, and because of that I can plan my time better and to satisfy more peoples' needs. It is a good feeling to see all

Don't think that I have forgotten about my blog...I am really finding time to write and also to update everyone about my life. Basically, i am leading a life right now that i never thought possible. Everyday is productive and I am actively working towards my goal. A goal that i never thought possible accomplishing so early in my life. I am thinking so much about life, and thinking so much about what is possible. Yet, I procastinated, i waited too long. At the age of 25 this year, i began to panic about my future. I began to panic about providing to her... I discovered the fact that I am lazing around previously, and although I thought that I am working very hard, but in reality I have accomplished little. To put it in a harsh way, I am wasting my life away. I feel so ashamed of myself, I tell everyone that I wanted to work hard, and yet this is what I am doing? I felt sick thinking about it...god damn it! What the heck am I doing.... A ship is safe when docked in a harbour, but tha