Exploring the Inside

I was looking deep inside to find what exactly I want, the opportunity found me however I am still thinking if this is really what I wanted to do or should I go back to where I was previously. I seriously search my heart and memories. Where did my goals lie and what should I be doing to create results. Thanks to Changchun that i get to know some great people yesterday. Eric Feng, which is the person which coached me for about 2 hrs in SMU yesterday in his seminar "How to be a human magnet" It is an interesting course and i bet i will never learnt what i have learnt by myself in the future. The course is interesting with an "extra dose" of humor. I learnt that what i have gained in this two years is not sheer luck and effort. It is what buttons I have pressed. It made me look back and thank that friend which has made such a change in my life and I really thank her for slapping me awake. It is in this rainy season that I will think of her and it sometimes made me moo...

The first light of the sun shines on me today... I have been thinking for the whole night... What have I done...? Unfortunately I knew it very well this time... It is my fault... - Synn

Light is something that alot of people is looking for... "Light at the end of the tunnel" Perhaps I am also looking for the firefly in my world, waiting for the light to appear in front of my eyes. Waiting and waiting...Walking on this unlit path, it is a path that is unfamilier to me, totally strange, and i'm walking on this path without knowing where it leads me to, and hopefully it will bring me to where I want to go. I am quite lost recently due to the events that happen in my life, to a stage that I'm wondering if I have made a mistake in making friends, or I have made a mistake knowing some people. I even wondering if I am doing the right things in the first place. Am I really as good as I thought myself to be? Am i walking too fast?? "You are walking too fast, and neglecting everyone that is walking with you, you are well ahead but alone..." Was chatting on msn and I am given this words...am I struggling to find the light to my destiny? I know ...

There is a few things that rocked the world living my life as serene as always...all these happened far away from my life. Recently the sex scandal of Edison Chen leads the way, the topics filled all table talks and gossips. Most of the chats leads to the news for Edison Chen and a fellow blogger has a great collection of the photos for the unfortunate starlets that is involved. Some risking cancellation of weddings to divorces and forcing the main protagonist dropping a latest movie. Raising concerns in internet security is something that is invisible to alot of people, and practising good habits to prevent such a thing is something that is inevitable. It is another spending on PS3 game, this time it's the 4th installment to a famous series named devil may cry...Fantastic game that kept me glued to the screen for 5 hours in a row...it has been a long time since I played a hack and slash game...and I must say this is one of the best that I have played so far in my life...interestin...

Work Work! This is what describe me basically...Full of Work and when I get home...it's SOOOO LATE!!! Anyway finally got a chance to come here and blog blog~~ Anyway I don't know what to blog today...HAPPY Chinese New Year!!!

I am thinking about mutation the other day and I was introduced to a friend's problem...A level of love which is introduced to escapism and in reality it turns the table on her...I was quite shocked when I heard the story, but I was not the person who gets the facts out of the horse mouth...however even if I am the 8th generation from the source of the information....I believe I will still be very very disturbed... Why does the word mutation linked in this instance...The whole incident started with love...love from the parents and love from the man...and the woman is stucked in between a complicated incident which threatens to divide her into two halves. She has to escape...she has no way to escape...she has a plan...and she has to use this plan to plan an escape...and never did she expect...the problem will grow after a few years... She is abused...with all human rights seized...trapped in confusion...slapped with curfew, and worst, stripped of her freedom. She is simple, however ...

Wondering if anyone has seen Mushishi...a japanese anime which explores the mystical organisms named mushi...micro organism that only the selected few can come across and get in contact with them... "People who listens more, gain wisdom" I found that I have not been listening...I have been deaf... Alot of people who is reading this may be thinking that...I should have known this long time ago...I believe i needed someone to slap me awake...and that person appeared infront of me...and he slapped me awake... I believe I have woke up from my dreamland...and be serious about alot of things... The time is now.... - Synn

Wondering if anyone has seen Mushishi...a japanese anime which explores the mystical organisms named mushi...micro organism that only the selected few can come across and get in contact with them... "People who listens more, gain wisdom" I found that I have not been listening...I have been deaf... Alot of people who is reading this may be thinking that...I should have known this long time ago...I believe i needed someone to slap me awake...and that person appeared infront of me...and he slapped me awake... I believe I have woke up from my dreamland...and be serious about alot of things... The time is now.... - Synn

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Edward_Bernays I was quite amazed by the amount of information that is stored in Wayne's Head. He must have read alot. What he said in a "La Tao Huay" session is strongly affixed into my mind. His persistence in his ideals, and also the way he sees the situation happening in the design industry here. The topic that was brought up and reminded by Cheemun was this person named Edward Bernays. I was looking around the internet and suddenly this person strikes me and I actually went over to google and check this person out...."The Father of PR - Edward Bernay". I forgot to ask Cheemun about the spelling of this person, and ended up with searches like "Albert Bernau, Albert Bernaoau, Edward Bernao etc...". Looks like I am desperately in need for hearing aids. Anyway it is inspirational to read about what this person did in difficult times and do things that people think is impossible... - Synn

What a topic... Everyday we make decisions, however at times we end up not making one... And it ends up with having the problem still wandering in the mind... Was talking to a friend and he was sharing this idea to me... How about you take don't know from your life... Or find a time that you say Yes or No clearly... Or find a time that you say Good or Bad... No more ambiguious answer... "Hows everything?" "Like that lor..." Irritating.... lol Anyway I was sharing with darling...and i seems to have angered her... Sorry Darling! Seems that I am too excited to share what I have learned today... Hope that she sleeps well... Goodnights - Synn

http://disgaea.jp/3/ I was wondering if I was possessed...I am obsessed with leveling in this game... I am obsessed with leveling and then reset it back to zero (reincarnation) Then Level Up again....(rinse and repeat) Well...leveling in virtual world or reality is quite different I believe I am also obsessed with leveling in reality... Sounds interesting... - Synn

Happy New Year Everybody!! Sleepy.... - Synn

Getting Over Something is sometimes not easy to do when the memories is deeply rooted in the mind. Sometimes it requires tremendous effort, just to forget something, when ironically you forget something effortlessly when you need to remember it... A movie that I personally rated 4 stars out of 5. Why i say that...i should say after watching a few movies that is more or less the same...I think that changing my taste for movies sometimes is not...a bad idea. A show which I guess will stay in my mind for a long time...A quite a nice approach to tell a story. A story that make alot of people relate to personal experiences in the past. A flim directed by Wong Kar Wai which is 王家卫. A director from Hong Kong which is renowned for his artistic movies. Well...i guess that rings a bell when i was on my way up to the theatre...My mind seems be sleeping throughout... Merry Christmas my readers...If there is any... -Synn

Sometimes i feel the need to understand, Sometimes I feel the need to realise, Sometimes I feel the need to think, Reflection... I have been very busy... I forgotten alot of things, I should say I sacrificed alot of things... I have exchanged things that is deared to me the future... Lately I have been thinking, I have sacrificed too many things around me... It is time to make amendments... I was sitting alone in riverine yesterday... I was thinking about my life...my future...my values...my philosophy I am confused...I have traded things...but am I truly happy? I made people happy however the one dear to me is not... I solved the problems of many however the one dear to me is not... I made money so I am happy however the one dear to me is not... Balance... It is quite a hard thing to do... I am again quite confused... quite down... feeling left out... - Synn

I like my sight... I can see things that brings me a variety of emotions... It brings meaning to life as the information of the world surge through my nerves... To the Brain... To my Body... I like my sight... I can do things whatever I like, and it brings me accomplishment... It brings meaning to life as the sense of satisfaction surge through my nerves... To the Brain... To my Body.... - Synn

I was like in this picture in the past. Locked away in my own world. A fish that is looking out at the fish bowl...helplessly... I lived in an enclosure of satisfaction... I was satisfied that this life of mine is the best... The world outside seems to be dark... Seems like a storm is brewing... I didn't want to experience the storm... I feared... The word Death seems to large... I will forever be isolated in my bowl... Swimming around aimlessly... Surviving...Forever... Oh i hate this... -Synn

I was in a class yesterday and we come to this part which they were talking about dreams and goals. Well, i have dreams and i have big dreams. Dreams that may seem incredible and unrealistic right now. I had the difficulty to visualise my dreams in the first place. I have a vague but uncertainty that I can achieve it. The seminar made it very clear that each of these dreams can be achieved with we make it smaller, smaller and smaller. So that each time that we try to achieve the smaller dream we will achieve the final dream in time. Also it sets a clear path to enjoy the journey towards your dream. "Alot of people is only interested in the destination, but forgot to enjoy the journey" I forgot where I saw this before, but it made a deep impact in my own ideas and beliefs. I had thrown everything I know about money, everything I know about the nature of the world. Finally i find myself at a point higher then the past. I was puzzled, i mean i have lost knowledge and yet with...

http://www.animenewsnetwork.com/news/2007-08-03/singapore-anime-licensor-pursues-illegal-downloaders Allow me to quote from the above link "Odex, one of Singapore's leading distributors of Japanese animation, has begun sending warning letters to parents of users who allegedly downloaded anime without authorization. Odex has been asking parents to discuss their children's behavior with its representatives, and in at least some cases, pay fines of as much as 3,000 Singapore dollars (about US$2,000). Odex's lawyers meet with each person who receives a letter, and decide on the scope and extent of any penalties. Under Singapore law, "willful and significant" downloading of illegal content is a crime punishable by a fine of up to 20,000 Singapore dollars (US$13,000) or up to six months in prison. Some of the anime Odex has licensed include Fullmetal Alchemist , Bleach , D.Gray-man , and Monster . " I am deeply sadden by the fact that starhub is providing ...

I wanted to do a reply to my darling's blog straight away after she posted her "watever" drink. Oh well I bought "Anything" to go with it but I was blocked with alot of work to post it straight away until after all the busy things has been over. Anyway this is the entry to reply to :P http://goldensummer.multiply.com/journal/item/17/Colourful_monday Lol....just a joke...I hope that she will see this LOL!!! -Synn

I'm sitting in my girlfriend's house writing today's entry...firstly... HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAWN! I'm thinking about today's bbq...it's quite nostalgic. Seems like the bbq i had years back with my secondary schoolmates, whom almost all I have forgotten. Well it was a grouping of new friends for now. A bbq... BBq...maybe it is because i have never had a really good bbq in my life...well perhaps it is because there is never a bbq that is really fun in my life...i was laughing today, smiling and socialising, but it was never...fun... I never really ate in bbqs come to think of it...it was never once that I really ate until I throw up or something. Today there were things that i was pissed off with, and also things that made me laugh truly...and also a negative demostration of Mario Kart DS with changchun and his gf...Throwing turtle shells backwards? Rings a bell to me...and it's really something that I have never done for a long time...it made me...wanted to go ba...