Light

Light is something that alot of people is looking for...

"Light at the end of the tunnel"

Perhaps I am also looking for the firefly in my world, waiting for the light to appear in front of my eyes. Waiting and waiting...Walking on this unlit path, it is a path that is unfamilier to me, totally strange, and i'm walking on this path without knowing where it leads me to, and hopefully it will bring me to where I want to go.

I am quite lost recently due to the events that happen in my life, to a stage that I'm wondering if I have made a mistake in making friends, or I have made a mistake knowing some people. I even wondering if I am doing the right things in the first place. Am I really as good as I thought myself to be? Am i walking too fast??

"You are walking too fast, and neglecting everyone that is walking with you, you are well ahead but alone..."

Was chatting on msn and I am given this words...am I struggling to find the light to my destiny? I know what I want and I know what I am striving for...however how many things do I have to sacrifice while I attain what I want. Even if I have attained what I wanted, will I be happy or contented with what I have lost? Perhaps after gaining what I wanted, I will cherish what I lost but it is already too late.

Therefore, I have decided to slow down my pace, and catch up with my friends, with my group of friends. I don't want to lose them, and I don't want to be alone when I feel I am successful in something. I might be a good for nothing now, but I won't be one in the future...perhaps I will be a good for nothing in the future. in any case I will be happy...working a job and earning a humble income...I will see light...and not endless pursuiting...

Hikari...

-Synn

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