Exploring the Inside

"You dropped your smile" "Did you happen to picked it up?" - Synn

Everyone Asked... Bought New Year Clothes? Got Take Leave? Going Where? Rest Until When? When Shou Gong (收工)? Got Go Oversea? Gonna Visit Friends? Got Play Mahjong? Got Eat Dinner? Err.... - Synn

I miss you...I really miss you... I miss the times that we argue with each other with broken english... I miss the times that you win using japanese which I am terrible at... I miss the times that when i sing you complain about the noise in the studying area... Although I may tell you that I miss the times...you will never read this blog anymore... I wish that there is computer in the place that you are going... I wish that there is somehow I can contact you after you are gone... I wish that somehow you can still use your broken english to motivate me.... I wish that there is perhaps you will become the angel to help everyone in the world.... Angel... May I call you this in the future... The ears that cannot hear anymore... The heart that cannot beat anymore... I did not write my blog for a while... I didn't know what to blog.... I didn't know what to write... Everything seems to be so bad.... The number in my handphone now call to static... Grief... I am forcing myself...

In this midst of the financial meltdown around the world, the end of 2008 has arrived. The year has been quite torturous, and I am quite happy that I survived. It is a year that perhaps I need some recollection...Even I drank alot during the countdown and I lost consciousness for a while...I woke up and saw the first daybreak of 2009. I made a wish...and also due to some recollection...I bathed early in the morning with cold water after i opened the envelope that I sealed up last year....I didn't fuifill any of the things I wrote on the cold morning of 1st Jan 2008. Although I am barely surviving the months of 2008 with lesser income, but I am happy. I am happy that I found friends that is willing to help and also friends that appreciated me for who I am. This first blog will be dedicated to everyone. Happy 2009! This is the sms that I got from friends...I got like 52 sms blessing me for the year....well it is like 5 times more then last year...I thank you all for the best wishes :...

风远远地吹着我的脸我的手我的发我的心我的眼睛 你远远的呆在那个城那个路那个房那个灯那扇窗口 我静静的放着你给我的CD音乐当作背景 怎么唱 都不再煽情 我记得你习惯闭着眼抱着我好像我是你的脸笑嘻嘻 我不知该如何对你笑对你哭张着嘴不理你像个机器 你的世界我的日子好像没有谁对谁发过脾气 过的太快，来不及 唉哟…… 你说你说我们要不要在一起 柔情的日子里 生活的不费力气 傻傻看你 只要和你在一起 我说我说我要我们在一起 爱你不费力气 不像现在只能遥远的唱着你 A Song by Fan Xiao Xuan and sang in this video by Lai Ming Wei, a song which well I didn't know this song exist until I saw this video, found the genre quite interesting and well I did my best to sing it in KTV yesterday. Thanks so much to the support by Alex, WeiQi and Mandy, oh well and another girl...really forgot her name...I'm really so bad at names... It made me thought so much, during this few days, really made me thought alot about myself, about what is happening in my life, perhaps alot of things I will have to really think about what I do recently. I really love my friends, I seriously love every single one of them. They gave me so much support, and well without you guys, I will really plunge into my own void...into my own world so much.... -S...

很久很久以前，有一个单身的男人独自抚养了一个三岁大的女儿。在圣诞节的时候，女儿准备一份礼物摆在圣诞树下。礼物是用了一个金色的包装纸包起来。男人到家的时候，狠狠地骂了女儿，因为当时景气不好， 他骂女儿的原因是因为它浪费钱了。 圣诞节那天早上，女儿把礼物带到了男人的面前。“爸爸，这是给您的”男人看着礼物，知道自己昨天太冲动了，原来礼物是买给自己的。男人打开礼物，里面出了一个箱子以外，什么都没有。男人看了以后，以为女儿在开自己的玩笑，又骂了女儿。“你不知道，礼物盒子里因该有东西吗？” 女儿眼中含泪地说，“不！爸爸，我把我的爱都放在盒子里！而且都是对您的爱！” 男人听了知道自己错了，把女儿拥在怀中叫女儿原谅他 圣诞节后的一天，女儿就被上帝带走了。女儿在一场严重的车祸里，离开了。 男人在很久很久候还是把包着金色的盒子留在身边，每当他在任何的时候感到消极或失落，他就会把盒子拿出来，感受那个女儿留给他满满的爱，记起纳三岁大的女儿。 -沁

从来就没有人问过我长大後到底要做些什么 放弃学业後如今什么都没有 没什么可以骄傲 现在写的每首歌对我来说希望可以被人接受 虽然很多人不了解我 可是至少我还有个梦 我一个人走 一个人看透 一个人受 烟都抽的寂寞 酒里头带着忧愁 路我自己选择 我一个人走 我的家人从不知道我这几年究竟在做些什么 直到这几年我才告诉他们我正在追求一个梦 他们没有反对 他们只能在我背後默默支持我 害怕他们一天天的老去 我只想带给他们快乐 我不想多说 随口说说 可能喝的多 我从来就没埋怨过 那是因为我有个幸福生活 我一个人走 A song that i feel tremendously touched when listening...Perhaps this is what happen to alot of people felt when walking on their own path. It is the life that perhaps people have undertake. A path that is not mainstream full of prejudice and unsure. I have such a path currently and I am certain that this path will take me to where I wanted to go. My way of living, it has been accepted by many who truely knows me and I am proud to have real friends now that understands what I think and what I yearn for. The dreams that I hold in my hands...the power that I can create. I solve problems and hopefully someone will come along and solve mine. Perhaps doing my best is not enough... Losing... Perhaps this is a stage that everyone have to go thro...

It was morning rush hour...as usual i'm late for work...so did everyone that is present in the train with me currently. Well Yishun has something that is good about it, and that is every alternate train, there is an empty one...well I happened to be lucky and got a seat. Through the crowd I happen to see the pretty face of a lady standing near to the door. She has just entered the carriage from Braddell station. Well she has such a nice face that it melts the boredom of the journey... As the crowd become lesser after passing through Toa Payoh and Novena, the girl did not move to the more spacious areas in the train...she just stand there....next to the door...and the best thing is that...she is not moving.... I am puzzled...wondering why is she still standing near the door...and even when there is space beside the door which has a transparent tinted glass which people always lean on...she didn't move over to lean on the glass... Feeling extremely curious, I tried to run every s...

沁： 让我看一下啦！ 丝：看什么啦！ 沁： 双手合起来，紧紧的... 丝：哪！（快速的将手放回身后） 沁: 我没看清楚啦！ 丝：你很麻烦吖！ 沁: 快点啦！ 丝：。。。干吗啦！神经病！(不愿意的样子，双手紧握着） 沁： 紧握双手，左手大拇指向上的话，神志理智，右手大拇指向上的话，容易感情用事 丝：。。。 沁：你还要感情用事到什么时候。。。 - Synn

Worms Infestation @ Brighton Toa Payoh...Just happen to be there when the exterminators came to take out the worms...check out the photos section for more photos...HUGE Worms...!!! Not for the fainthearted...

It's a busy day for me, on that day and even on saturday i'm not even free enough to be online to blog about my birthday, it is even agony enough to not have time to really deal with my online games... But...I'm happy. I must say that I'm really happy living a life like that, well i'm loved by almost everyone around me, no matter friends or relative, i'm a lucky boy. Haha... Friday is the day which everything in the office is almost completed, the internet connection is up in the last minute, and almost all the connections in the office is done with some hard on testing from me. The office is now 100% operational starting monday. It is a challenge to change the mindset about the new office but I think I am coping it quite well. My level of consciousness seems to be lower these days as I try my best to focus on my work and also to make sure that everything is 100%. The dinner in Hanabi is amazing, well i like what they serve over there, Japanese Ala Carte Buffet...

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Well it's thursday, and usually to everyone there is ain't gonna be anything worth mentioning on this damn boring day. However....this thursday proved otherwise...it's fun and not only that, pretty productive...and ALSO..pretty sentimental and nostalgic... Went to somewhere near tanjong pagar for lunch and there is this New Harbour Cafe & Bar. Derrick said that the food here is damn good and sure enough...judging by the picture above might already gave you a picture of how mouth-watering it is...the chicken chop is...powerful!!!... The food is good, the place is good...and well the topic sort of spoils abit of the atmosphere...overall it's fine.... Once again there has been more improvement in my idea generation in terms of christmas card creation...I have once again broke through the traditional "lost" idea to create something interesting using photoshop and the finger painting technique to create a nicer picture for christmas. Evening...met A-Sa for dinn...

Found something interesting on the net, was talking to garry and leejoon about "the secret" and when I first found out about "the secret" was with changchun last year, and after seeing the chinese version of the book that garry brought to the office, it seems to piece together a thought for me to look for it on the net and reading up on what is being introduced in the book. "THE LAW OF ATTRACTION"...something so simple and yet so powerful. Something which exists all the time but may not be seen, intangible yet with massive force. Hope you people enjoy the read :) ----------------------------------------------------------------------------- The Law of Attraction  simply says that you attract into your life whatever you think about.  Your dominant thoughts will find a way to manifest.  But the Law of Attraction gives rise to some tough questions that don’t seem to have good answers.  I would say, however, that these problems aren’t caused by the Law of Attra...

Quote: From Richard Picture from http://starsburst.deviantart.com/ --------------------------------------------------- Life is like being gang rape If you cannot avoid it , run away from it You better start to learn How to enjoy it ... C'mon Baby !!! Damn it !!! Time to give life a good FUCK !!! Life really sucks ... And a lousy fucker too ... That's what life is all about !!! -------------------------------------------------- Sorry for the vulgarities there, and after reading through it...felt that yeah it's quite damn true....because you are being ganged left right up center...yeah gangbanged....situations come and goes and sometimes situations that were solved...returned unsolved...and it is almost frustrating just to think about it... Today is a day which my head is spinning all the way and I am surprised that I can still work at this stage...it is amazing that what I have accomplished today in this state...the state of think while my head is like spinning, lik...

Welcome to my brain, we hope that you have an excellent experience, please note that the current journey is 1. unrefundable, 2. unguranteed, 3. unprotected. As you decend into the abyss of this forbidden archive...remember yourself and do not be overwhelmed by the emotions or hallucinations that you might experience...as we will not be able to give any insurance coverage in this instance....Goodbye to the past... As you scroll down the the deepest depths of my brain you will find the forbidden archives that is here since the beginning of this life, it is what you say everyday at night...and the memories of what happen in the day before is reversed back into the brain, processed and archived. The best thing about this "backup" feature is that it is selectable and also very easy to do. The amount of information that the brain can store and archived is dependent on how much you think it can store...and it is actually.....virtually unlimited... Today I say goodbye to two people.....

I was listening to songs and this lyrics pop up with a tune...and wrote them down and then...well i forgot the tune...damn!!...It's the first time I'm able to write down what I thought. Usually I sing them and then well forget it... Thanks so much for this few days with Garry and Richard...the ultimate duo that made me feel that like well...they are like one thousand times more jialat then me...and I wonder how it spread as I didn't update anything and didn't change any status...and thanks to everyone for your care and concern.... I'm fine!!! Lol... I got the lyrics of the song right here...feel free to give me comments...if I have time i will guitar tab them...hang on!!! 已经勇敢几分钟， 眼睛湿得有一点难受， 心情依旧失落 已经狂饮几杯酒， 眼睛里灯光旋转闪烁， 这次我真的不懂， 错，是谁错，难道依旧我认错 对，是谁对，难道我总是不对 听歌唱出我的心事，情歌常常让我心疼， 对或错已经不是绝对 唱歌的人五音不全，听歌的人摇头晕眩， 我知道，“我不会唱歌“ 也许勇敢不回头， 寂寞应该不会太难受， 心情虽然失落， 我一定会很快恢复， 错，是谁错，难道依旧我认错 对，是谁对，难道我总是不对 听歌唱出我的心事，情歌常常让我心疼， 对或错已经不是绝对 唱歌的人五音不全，听歌的人摇头晕眩， 我知道，“我不会唱歌“ 已经勇敢几分钟， 眼睛湿了， 眼红了， 也要离开 - Sy...

http://www.scottkelby.com/blog/2008/archives/2203 I was "walking" around the internet and found some interesting articles that made me stop and read for 30 mins. (I know that it took me damn long to read this post)...Richard Harrington is absolutely amazing in his sharing of shooting RAW Photographs instead of just shooting Jpegs. It has bored me before that shooting raw photographs requires alot of post-production in order to send the photographs over to my friends who are in the photos. More often than not, I end up delaying my friends photographs and depriving dramas that might derived from that trip or that outing. Photography...it's a new soul in my life other then music...recently Garry brought up something about learning how to play guitar and I said that I know how to play a guitar but not really classical and it's self-learned...I got a feeling that perhaps after 4 years that we know each other, I have never shown the musical side of me in regards to instrume...

This is the latest addition to my want list...the new 15 inch macbook pro. The design is gorgeous. How I came to know about it is from a link from a incidentless (I invented this word) day from Kelvin...he didn't say anything except paste this exact words - www.apple.com Some background for anyone who doesn't know, it is like when we find interesting website to share, we will just paste to whoever is online at that time on MSN, and kelvin happened to have the most interesting links IMO to date. When he pasted www.apple.com to me...I was like duh!? Who doesn't know that site!? My worst "fears" is confirmed as I didn't went to apple's site for like...2 days? The new design is out... There was already alot of rumors about this and I have pretty much become numb about it and the first impression to this baby is that...oh my god! It was quite funny as we were about to go on a break for lunch and is in the middle of a meeting, when I click on this link...it i...

【射手座11/23-12/21：沒骨氣的落跑大王】 少一根筋有啥好驕傲的，少蠢了好不好！一個太直接的人叫作笨好嗎？不是凡事一針見 血就有效！你沒聽過欲速則不達嗎？這些致命的缺點，通常射手身邊的人都很清楚，只 有射手自己不清楚！因為少一根筋的關係，導致做事瞻前不顧後，說話總是有口無心， 傷害了不少至親摯友，但自己仍渾然不知。你最厲害的一招是，當你把一件好好的事情 搞砸的時候，自己卻當起第一個落跑的人，真的是旋風小飛俠，來無影去無蹤，不知你 身在何方，天良何在！ 超級自戀狂，從不知鏡子對你的作用是啥？反正照了也沒用，因為你是一個永遠看不見 自己缺點，厚臉皮到家的人！當射手眼中有一個目標的時候，世界就只剩下那一個目 標，導致你完全感覺不到週遭到底發生了啥事，天塌下來也與你無關！ 沒看過記憶力太差，還把它當作自己的優點，拿來驕傲地掛在嘴邊一直講的傻蛋，諸不 知世上十個忘了關瓦斯的人九個是射手座的笨蛋；十個把小孩帶出門，忘了帶尿片跟奶 瓶的人九個是射手座的蠢蛋；但是，十個到機場九個忘了帶護照的，就絕對不會是射 手，因為出去玩這檔事，射手可從來沒馬虎過！ 你個愛情觀就別提了吧！因為你從來都只有三秒鐘的專情能力， 一看到新貨就像惡虎撲狼一樣的撲過去，絲毫不知羞恥，然後連對老情人說拜拜都沒有，又是一溜煙的消失， 不負責任到家！還有，花也就算了，卻連說謊的本事也沒有，老是被抓苞，什麼唇印、 戲票、給別人的情書啦，通通都留在身上，真是個凡走過必留下痕跡的大白痴！ -Synn