Love...True Love??
This is a subject that alot of people talk about and even the songs that we are listening, the shows that we are seeing. Also something that can bring intense happiness and also sadness at the same time...Perhaps a type of chemical reaction that is produced when adrenaline is being pushed by a reaction from the heart, increasing the heartbeat and also rises the body temperature causing the sweat glands to react and results in sweat...
Nah...that is the chemical reaction that is theorised...
Recently well there is so many people while being normal at first...is pushed to hell by their boyfriends or girlfriends....some emotionally strucked and caused their downfall in whatever they are currently doing and actually cause them to be changed...I have almost forgotten how it affects me previously well - laughs - it happened more then half a year ago....something that perhaps changed me more then I have ever imagined....
Only until last week I heard more then 3 cases which the boyfriend actually left the girlfriend....and also after sharing their stories with me, I actually felt that the situation is actually mutual...problems arises from both ends...there is nothing like "I have done nothing!" Perhaps this is the problems with us humans...
Bleach - an anime aired in Japan, popular among kids and teenagers and well me...I'm not saying that i'm a kid or still a teenager to like this anime...well actually there is something that I quite like in the show....Ulquiorra said something like that when he is talking to Orihime "Your souls(love)? You Humans said that so lightly, As if it were something one can hold in the palm of one's hand, what is it, could I see it if I tore open your chest? Could I see it if I cracked open your head?"...LOL...oh well I'm a freak I guess....
People who are down, I can feel the air when I was in Arena the other they with my friends, and I can see how this piece of emotion is affecting her....She is downing drinks after drinks and trying her best to keep her composure...I felt well painful...I stayed with her and downing drinks with her...after a while I felt disgusted I am being affected by her as well....went to the toilet and after splashing my face with water I look at myself in the mirror....Have I thought about anything other then work for this past six months...
As I walked out of the washroom and back to the music filled hall of arena....I am sober...I am well is well aware about my surroundings more then what I came here to do...to forget the constant pain that I am feeling when I know that what I have done is not completely right in the company...that what I felt for my colleagues is totally well unnecessary....politics....*laugh*, I shouted with her, can see that she is letting go of her emotions, and I am shouting is because I'm frustrated with myself....
Perhaps Love doesn't just apply to well Love....it applies to friends and people who care about....I sms how much I cared about her...and well it's as a friendship....I didn't want to sink any ship however it has come to a point that I have to force that person out of the ship if needed...I am too soft...I have to be really hard to do it....
Ktv started with the gang yesterday with another gal lost in love...She is sobbing quietly as everyone is singing the songs that they are good at, and well normal in the session...unfortunately they are all slow songs and mostly talks about love...Wearing her shawl and pure magenta dress she crumbles under the weight of the songs....Feeling bad that It is suppose to help her to relieve her stress, I actually did things that perhaps I didn't do much before....I dance and crack jokes, mostly yellow ones, and boy I made her laugh...Jak is doing his best too....the "normal" things that we do became something interesting for her...
Perhaps that is the best i can do to help her to get over him....do your best...
That one hour ride back home on the N1 made me think of her...perhaps when I left, she crumbles too....but she have to stand up and walk her own path, as my path doesn't overlaps with her....I knew that she has found one....and that is what I'm happy with...I am well selfish I know, I left because I cannot take the pressure, I ran....I am not what I can structure myself to be...I need to be free and I am sorry that she needs to be sacrificed....
- Synn
Nah...that is the chemical reaction that is theorised...
Recently well there is so many people while being normal at first...is pushed to hell by their boyfriends or girlfriends....some emotionally strucked and caused their downfall in whatever they are currently doing and actually cause them to be changed...I have almost forgotten how it affects me previously well - laughs - it happened more then half a year ago....something that perhaps changed me more then I have ever imagined....
Only until last week I heard more then 3 cases which the boyfriend actually left the girlfriend....and also after sharing their stories with me, I actually felt that the situation is actually mutual...problems arises from both ends...there is nothing like "I have done nothing!" Perhaps this is the problems with us humans...
Bleach - an anime aired in Japan, popular among kids and teenagers and well me...I'm not saying that i'm a kid or still a teenager to like this anime...well actually there is something that I quite like in the show....Ulquiorra said something like that when he is talking to Orihime "Your souls(love)? You Humans said that so lightly, As if it were something one can hold in the palm of one's hand, what is it, could I see it if I tore open your chest? Could I see it if I cracked open your head?"...LOL...oh well I'm a freak I guess....
People who are down, I can feel the air when I was in Arena the other they with my friends, and I can see how this piece of emotion is affecting her....She is downing drinks after drinks and trying her best to keep her composure...I felt well painful...I stayed with her and downing drinks with her...after a while I felt disgusted I am being affected by her as well....went to the toilet and after splashing my face with water I look at myself in the mirror....Have I thought about anything other then work for this past six months...
As I walked out of the washroom and back to the music filled hall of arena....I am sober...I am well is well aware about my surroundings more then what I came here to do...to forget the constant pain that I am feeling when I know that what I have done is not completely right in the company...that what I felt for my colleagues is totally well unnecessary....politics....*laugh*, I shouted with her, can see that she is letting go of her emotions, and I am shouting is because I'm frustrated with myself....
Perhaps Love doesn't just apply to well Love....it applies to friends and people who care about....I sms how much I cared about her...and well it's as a friendship....I didn't want to sink any ship however it has come to a point that I have to force that person out of the ship if needed...I am too soft...I have to be really hard to do it....
Ktv started with the gang yesterday with another gal lost in love...She is sobbing quietly as everyone is singing the songs that they are good at, and well normal in the session...unfortunately they are all slow songs and mostly talks about love...Wearing her shawl and pure magenta dress she crumbles under the weight of the songs....Feeling bad that It is suppose to help her to relieve her stress, I actually did things that perhaps I didn't do much before....I dance and crack jokes, mostly yellow ones, and boy I made her laugh...Jak is doing his best too....the "normal" things that we do became something interesting for her...
Perhaps that is the best i can do to help her to get over him....do your best...
That one hour ride back home on the N1 made me think of her...perhaps when I left, she crumbles too....but she have to stand up and walk her own path, as my path doesn't overlaps with her....I knew that she has found one....and that is what I'm happy with...I am well selfish I know, I left because I cannot take the pressure, I ran....I am not what I can structure myself to be...I need to be free and I am sorry that she needs to be sacrificed....
- Synn
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