Blinded By Sun Rays..

Don't think that I have forgotten about my blog...I am really finding time to write and also to update everyone about my life. Basically, i am leading a life right now that i never thought possible. Everyday is productive and I am actively working towards my goal. A goal that i never thought possible accomplishing so early in my life. I am thinking so much about life, and thinking so much about what is possible. Yet, I procastinated, i waited too long. At the age of 25 this year, i began to panic about my future. I began to panic about providing to her...

I discovered the fact that I am lazing around previously, and although I thought that I am working very hard, but in reality I have accomplished little. To put it in a harsh way, I am wasting my life away. I feel so ashamed of myself, I tell everyone that I wanted to work hard, and yet this is what I am doing? I felt sick thinking about it...god damn it! What the heck am I doing....

A ship is safe when docked in a harbour, but that is not what a ship is built for!

I am not giving her alot of time, but i will try my best to giving her the attention which she so desirably seeking. I wanted to show her that, I will be able to provide to her what she will want so much in our lives. I wanted her to have the best, to be able to shop without much limitations. I felt so angry when i didn't have time to accompany her to the saloon, or when I didn't have time to enjoy Great Singapore Sale with her.

But all of this will be over, I will make sure that I will be able to accompany her to the saloon in the future, and we will enjoy the Great Singapore Sale together next year...

Thanks to everyone who is helping me along the way to attain what I am seeking...

It is such a wonderful thing to see everyone fighting alongside with me. I will fight and we will one day remember the day that we fight together, ah what a great feeling...

-Synn

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