Don't think that I have forgotten about my blog...I am really finding time to write and also to update everyone about my life. Basically, i am leading a life right now that i never thought possible. Everyday is productive and I am actively working towards my goal. A goal that i never thought possible accomplishing so early in my life. I am thinking so much about life, and thinking so much about what is possible. Yet, I procastinated, i waited too long. At the age of 25 this year, i began to panic about my future. I began to panic about providing to her... I discovered the fact that I am lazing around previously, and although I thought that I am working very hard, but in reality I have accomplished little. To put it in a harsh way, I am wasting my life away. I feel so ashamed of myself, I tell everyone that I wanted to work hard, and yet this is what I am doing? I felt sick thinking about it...god damn it! What the heck am I doing.... A ship is safe when docked in a harbour, but tha...