Stress

I was wondering about stress until recently which I have to really deal with it. I mean I have never really felt stress for a long time since I was preparing to go into army. The last time that I feel really, really stressed out and even suffer from sickness which came from stress was when I was ready to be admitted into army.

I was terrified, uncertain, I mean which guy won’t feel that way when they are going to go into a place which might not have a single kind soul to help you and all there is was cultural shock and plenty of things waiting for you.

Stress management has been part and parcel of my life, and thankfully I have succeeded to prevail every time stress nearly devour the human side of me. However, I snapped yesterday night. I had no idea why suddenly I felt sadness rose from a deep abyss which presuming a storeroom in my heart. I felt terrified, pressurized. The first time I felt for a long time.

I was pressurized by my job, my client, peers all at the same time. The amount of money earn was spent so quickly that I have never even think about how was I spending it. It is horrendous just to think about it. I broke down and cried. I didn’t know why. I mean I am a guy! And this tears rolling down my cheek, I tell myself, this can’t be happening. I was terrified and started to wipe my tears off my face, and I say to myself what the heck is happening.

It felt like eternity before it stopped.

This is a terrible experience…really terrible…

Morning came, and I think I felt better, but a new problem arises…I believe I have to tackle this one before the nightmare is over. I felt a new problem is in the horizon.

-Synn