Exploring the Inside

A part of me seems to have forgotten about the past until recently i reconnected to the IRC and found out that, actually a part of me has been left there. Most of my friends are still chatting, and they still remember about me! That is something that left warmth in my heart. Made a lot of new friends in the network as well, maybe it is just my chatting habits imbued in me. Had a week that is purely working, it was quite interesting to work for passion. Actually i have been creating quite alot of new stuff for me to be more productive and also more organised. Earned praises from my clients and also from the management of the company I am attached to. Alot of my friends ask me why did I still stick to this job after like 2 years. To them I should be changing and learn another field of the industry. Still sticking to my mindset, yes upgrading is right, however ultimately the point of life is to be successful in managing the next generation. I want to earn a comfortable life, a life that i...

I didn't know if that is post WCG sickness or something, i felt churning in my stomach at the thought of playing infront of everyone. I was watching the game in WCG at suntec, an 1 v 1 game for warcraft III ladder. It was intriguing, and also quite inspiring for me to take up ladder once more... they were pros...nevertheless it was an entertaining match...but from this picture it seems that all post sickness is all gone...:) Took some shots at the suntec corel aquarium. It is just amazing how all these "plants" or "animals" survive there. I mean it was gorgeous, the lights, the luminosity is definately interesting. I love how they glow in the dark. With the ultraviolet lights shining, and they are all there showing off themselves. I took the corels also with my handphone, I hope it turns out good, however after importing...I was sort of disappointed, so this scaled down version still look quite good hahaha... This is my WCG tag...with my name and nick, anyway I...

I always ask myself, what I want in my life. In the past, I really have no idea at all. In fact, I wanted everything for myself. I can say that I am a damn selfish person. Howevery if you tell me what i want today. I start to feel that the things that I want in the past is not what I want now. This tells me that I have changed. I began to like things that is intangible. I like music. I love music. I love to make people feel. I really treasure the ability which I can use my speech to change people's feeling. I was wondering these days, why am I so pessimistic about everything that I am doing so far. I wasn't like that in the past. I suddenly felt that I'm inferior in terms of everything. Felt crippled... I was not doing well in alot of things, while people are improving tremendously i felt myself standing still. I felt that i'm not moving at all. Not building constructively. I felt empty... I manage too many things at one time, I end up doing all of them at the same time...