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A Hella Weekend for MTG

2012-01-03T11:46:00.003+08:00

Hi Everyone,

I know that I have not been blogging personally and just for work, and finding things to do that are more productive. I have been slacking and there is absolutely no excuses over it. I have been playing and thinking about things that I have no control over and thoughts about falling in love with well the game that made me almost gave up my "O" Levels and falling in love then and now the same thing happens all over again after nearly 15 years ago.

I SOLD my entire collection because of the need of money for my MLM, and in turn earned the money for my ex-girlfriend's gift, I have come back to the game about half a year ago in the Rise of the Eldrazi expansion back in Zendikar Block. The likes of Jace The Mind Sculptor tormenting Standard. Now the same thing has happened to this Innistrad Block. Snapcaster Mage Tormenting Standard at the moment, but not as much as Jace TMS. Oh well there was a joke about Jace TMD, I mean TMS...>_<

We were playing Standard Constructed before being engrossed in Drafting last weekend. This was the schedule of Drafting...

New Years Eve Overnight (New Phyrexia) Draft - Roy, Derrick plus Jason(Me)

What I got (Worth Mentioning)... Foil Sword of War and Peace (Woot!)

GH Afternoon Draft (Innistrad) Draft - Roy, Fei, Derrick, Mark(GH), Sky plus Jason(ME)

What I got (Worth Mentioning)... None of I remembered Off Hand...

New Years Day Overnight (M12) Draft - Derrick, Louis(GH), Fei, Patrick, Sky plus Jason(ME)

What I got (Worth Mentioning)... Phantasmal Image, Dungrove Elder, Grim Lavamancer

Overall I remembered that I had well...Took money for all 3 drafts and it was really fun although I had lost all 3 drafts to pretty good deck drafts. The reason to my losts were the failure to draft good creatures as well as the failure to predict cuts and power spells. The previous drafts back in Jcube which resulted in I won a Snapcaster as well as the Garruk Relentless in prize was a example of a clearheaded strategy with cleancut no cuts.

This is an example of being smart and being outwitted by smart....LOL...

Hope to learn my lesson in terms of drafting through experience an hopefully by dark ascension I will have better intuition to combat my opponents no matter in limit or constructed.

Woot!

- Jason Synn Tan

Magical Thoughts - SplinterFright Tweak

2011-10-23T13:47:00.001+08:00

It might not come to a surprise that actually I had come back to magic and in a style that was never before. Ever since I broke up with my gf about 1 year plus ago. I had plenty of time to spare and at night to forget the torment 6 years ago, so well I went all out on Innistrad set which is the newest one and net another card named Snapcaster Mage today, which is going at around $25sgd currently. "Nap shot" my friend Fei Said.

Kind of pleased at my luck i carefully sleeved up the card and in it went into my file. This is the third Snapcaster Mage after opening 3 boxes of innistrad and about 20 packs. 3 + 6 packs during pre-release, 3 packs opened with Derrick, and 5 packs yesterday in J-Cube. Sold the other two for $25 each which nets me $50 back. Not bad! Said Derrick when he wacked a pack and got a foiled Hinterland Harbour which I applauded. After saying Hi to Wayne who didn't even notice us back in Northpoint MacDonalds.

Well Back to yesterday. I was quite disappointed that my deck has played towards my friends who are playing White Weenies (Fei's only deck), a Permission Poison Deck (Sky's Deck) and Tempered Steel (Roy). Mine seems to be looking in the sky and playing Draw-Go most of the time in the Chaos Match Up. It wasn't a surprised as I was playing with some cards that didn't over a punch over competitive decks like what they are playing. It was a "fun" deck though. This time round I put my heart into really forming one that is going to pack a punch at least in tournaments.

Not wanting to play Red Deck Wins (RDW), I search around playing with Laboratory Maniac. Something which allows me to win perhaps the first match, and then completely removing this winning condition on the second match up by playing all out aggro. All thanks to Fei who actually accompany me in J-Cube until ten with a match up with a mirror deck against my Splinterfright Self Mill Deck. Sorry that I forgotten his name, and he looks Chinese but however speaks a slangy English, more to really American style, great time talking to him. His is a more sorcery based rather than creatures...therefore I am in a complete surprise at how the deck performs at the Self Mill.

Game 1 - I was losing to a faster mill process which made his Splinterfright to 7/7 Trampler in no time which I changed his Splinterfright into a 3/3 beast with beast within. And than following it with a boneyard wurm. Mine is 7/7 as well. He was laughing when he said "Free 3/3 beast, not bad!", I'm glad as his forbidden alchemy fetches another Splinterfright into his hand and drops another 2 creatures in..., I replied "It could be 9/9 now, glad that I only have to take care of the part 2 Splinterfright". My beast within didn't come and I was overwhelmed by a part 2 12/12 Boneyard Wurm and a Part 3 14/14 Splinterfright from his Noxious Revival. Ouch!

Game 2 - He kept a one land hand and I had not much good hand as well as reality unfolds to my advantage. His land stalls and thank god for Mulch as I draws 1 more Hinterland Harbor dropping Kessig Cagebreakers, Deranged Assistant and a Splinterfright (MY SPLINTERFRIGHT!) I was yelling....However I had something on my sleeves next turn...On Turn 3 I played Skaab Ruinator on this face and he was saying "Oh! A flying fatty". I nodded and said yeah...Pleased with the Mulch that gives me 3 creatures to Exile. Turn 4 I swing for 5 on his face when he got a LLanowar elves in to help with his mana woes. A Turn 5 second Island was too late as I layed my fifth land casting a 0/0 boneyard wurm which goes into the graveyard and then a 1/1 Splinterfright. Swing for 5 again and he is down to 10. The 2 card mill from Splinterfright sets him at 2/2 and I draws a beast within. But scoops at my Ruinator. He said "Reminds me never to keep a 1 land hand" and we both laughed.

Game 3 - Hands down to him as he managed to pull off a great self mill with Forbidden Alchemy, Dream Twist, then using Noxious Revival to bring the SplinterFright Back on his Library and casting a Turn 4 6/6 SplinterFright. On Turn 5, due to the flashback from Dream Twist, and the SplinterFright Self Mill, puts it at 10/10, downs me to 12 after I blocked it with my 2/2 Wurm. I draw and concede. It is great to see another deck and one that is performing better... :)

However his deck still loses Hands Down to Fei's White winnie which the O-rings on the SplinterFright Shuts down his Deck completely, and without Skaab Ruinator he is unable to Flash back anymore creatures....Not bad I thought...I might want to play with Crackling Counterparts the next time :)

Time to tweak the Deck Further!

4 x Birds of Paradise

3 x Boneyard Wurm

1 x Merfolk Looter

4 x MindShrieker

3 x Phantasmal Image

2 x Laboratory Maniac

3 x Skaab Ruinator

4 x SplinterFright

2 x Mirror-Mad Phantasm

4 x Mulch

3 x Beast Within

4 x Forbidden Alchemy

8 x Forest

11 x Island

4 x Hinterland Harbour

SideBoard:

1 x Beast Within

4 x Mana Leak

1 x Phantasmal Image

4 x Acidic Slime

2 x Back from the Brink

3 x Noxious Revival

I'll see how this deck Fares next week in FNM or Saturday / Sunday Afternoon Magic with my playgroup :)

- Synn

Love...

2011-01-17T00:33:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wonder if I will get it back...it is constantly on holiday...when will it come back? :)

I am always looking out for it recently....ever since 2011 started...the feeling of loneliness has also started....work is no longer able to help me to relieve this part of my emotion. I have been trying to work hard....when I start to feel lonely.

Today my laptop is not with me....I have not brought it back home with me...on purpose. I wanted to find substitutes....I have been working and thinking...what can be done...and now I have been entrusted on a task with an innovation to help my company and also to relieve some of my colleagues off work...

Hopefully....i will be able to find her.... Soon.....:)

- Synn

Dream Dreaming...

2011-01-06T12:28:00.001+08:00

Future by Dumnezeu (DeviantArt)
(http://browse.deviantart.com/digitalart/photomanip/?qh=&section=&q=future#/dht1oy)

A glimpse into the future in my dreams is something that I have dreamt alot ever since the Countdown. I met up with Yu Ting back in december when she was in Singapore for her holidays. We chatted and although she is super busy back in Taiwan for her modelling and might be going into showbiz, she is also hoping that she will be able to really able to enjoy more freedom before going into business. Oh well I told her to go for her dream, or perhaps to fast forward your life in your dreams to live in it for a while, perhaps it will tell you more.

The movie "Inception" gaves a concept that the time in our dreams travels faster, although while I'm writing this blog I really forgotten the equation they gave in the movie. I do know that each time you think, the cycle will be much faster in your dream than in reality...My glimpse into my future? *Laugh* Perhaps even I am afraid.

I was dreaming and I was glimpsing as a person from the future to my early days. The days which I am not like I am today, the more sinister and narrow person I am, a bad guy, someone who keeps on saying the untruth about everything, trying to be better than other people. I really hate myself, my friends who has been together with me since than will know...and I really thank them for still being by my side. I sought out ways to change, and gradually. I transformed and now I am who I am today. The new friends, invisible to who I am in the past, accepted the new me and I felt reborned. Forever thanks to the people, Jackson, Kelvin, Steven, Ervin, Wayne. Without you guys I will forever be the bastard I am before.

Anyway my future...I wanna me able to get what I want before 30. I am still on track I guess...just that I will need to work very hard...Surviving on a concept that tells myself to spend only 30 bucks a day for 6 months. If I can do it, I will be able to extend it further till a year. Why 30 bucks? I want to be able to sustain a lifestyle that I can save the amount of money I want to get what I want. That is all. Sacrifice activities or perhaps doing it less often, and getting more jobs. Freelances, and also trying to make up a nice blog for adsense clicks.

A nice girlfriend, so that I can forget about Mai...she has been forever in my mind.

A new intuos wacom pad, although the current one is ten years old and still alive :D

Car license.....Long overdue......

That is all.....

- Synn

Countdown with KTVClub

2011-01-04T18:49:00.000+08:00

I am very happy to be with the KTVClub folks, and I will always feel that way even if I am to be less involved due to work and personal commitments. I wanna be more efficient and effective in work and doing what I am supposed to be. This is my new year resolution.

Countdown party was a success, and it is a great hit in my opinion, although Nigel says that it is a disappointment as the number of people who turn up is lesser than our expectations. No doubt I wanna thank Cordelia, Wendy, Eddie, Roy and Winston for preparing their song for their performance during the chalet. While I am not really an expert guitarist, I actually survived.

The games is great and although we are not feeling well, Nigel, Hacktor and I continue to be sporty and really push the mood level up to another gear. It is great. New year started with a pop from Allan with a "champagne" and hacktor's popped a few seconds later.

It is great to be there, although drenched with sweat and finger aches due to practise....I felt that well that the day is memorable, there are hiccups and opinions but well nevertheless....I love everyone...There was no spoiltsports and no petty moods....it is everyone together....Happy....I hope I will continue to be Happy....Continue :D

- Synn

Macau Trip October 2010

2010-10-27T00:00:00.001+08:00

Just came back from Macau on tuesday, took a break yesterday and not posting much also have left my workblog: http://realtorsnews.blogspot.com stranded for a while LOL. Need more work to make traffic eh I guess. Oh well I am trying my best to do it. Need to edit all the beautiful pictures that I have taken in Macau this time round. I am quite happy that the percentage of my happy pictures has gone from 15% to about 20%.

Had a damn nice night photowalk with Donny, and both of us really WALK. Haha....Took a damn long walk along the coast of macau to capture two bridges and some nightviews along the shore. Mad Love. Check out my deviantart for more panoramic photos that I taken.

I didn't really went shopping and only sightseeing, went disneyland Hongkong, and drinks and retake some photos that I don't really like on my last trip.

Will update more when I am done converting the photos. It is on my mac now, my PC has gone up the lorry already. Sianz...Anyway need to buy new computer already....Thinking Thinking Thinking......

- Synn

Reflections: 110 Contestants and Me as 1 of the Judges....

2010-10-19T11:10:00.000+08:00

Listening to 110 songs a day might not be difficult for anyone of us i guess, but ever try to rate all of them before? Lol i had my first time last Saturday during the KTVclub Idol Audition in Marina Square Kbox. I bet that all the contestants must be scared stiff seeing Nigel, Kue and Myself in the room with a sometime serious face and the mood must be unsettling. Most of the people didn't perform to their fullest potential and even if we gave more chances, some just gave up and said sorry to us and left the room.

It is an experience to see that some of them are really good but gave way to their nervousness, it is really a pity when we the judges were discussing about some of the really good singers didn't pass the bar due to their lack of composure. Perhaps people will challenge to me that Hey, Jason, you didn't go for competitions before therefore you don't know.... Hey man....you are right LOL.

I gave lenient marks, tried to save some, however there is only 18 slots, and I can't fit everyone into the slots. To the people who came and say that they didn't come to win, and some came not to lose, some came to prove a point, some came because their friends registered for them. I heard screaming on the phone when I break the news that she is selected, I also heard unbelieveness that she is receiving this phonecall from me. I am happy for those who are selected for the big stage in Swee Lee, and sad for those who are not. I hope the people who came, got something to bring back to think about their singing. We all gave constructive comments and hopefully, you all will be able to come back with a better resistance to stress and this time to be able to gain top marks and come to the finals.

For the rest of the people who want to listen to the ones that made the judges grasps at the quality of the singers, can come to Swee Lee Music Cafe on the 30th of this month. Get more information from our website http://ktvclub.blogspot.com .

Sincerely hope you people have the time to come to see us :)

- Synn

Portfolio Update

2010-10-13T18:58:00.001+08:00

Went to Sentosa like last week and just nice it is Rena's birthday. Frankly speaking I have been neglecting much about my photography, and my camera has been relegated to just taking point and shoot stuff for a while. Today is just the day that the mood has come and the only victim is heh....Rena. Since she is the birthday girl and has no excuse to refuse and also the center of attraction for "sabo". So...just take a few.... :P

Sentosa was fun, it was really a outing that makes most of us sweat with games like "captain frisbee" and "captain ball". We should have such activities often. My tummy is getting bigger as I age and have not been really exercising. Working hard and not enough on the bed exercise too (giggles)....OH WELL~ Need to work for money eh!...

Anyway I didn't take alot for Da Bday Girl...just the few which is shown in this superimpose...

Let me know what you guys think ok? :)

- Synn

Crazy About MTG

2010-10-08T18:38:00.000+08:00

Recently is a hectic month of really hard on Magic: The Gathering...Oh yeah..I'm BACK in Blogspot!!! Found that the Multiply account really does nothing and is repetitive, which I can put my photographs on facebook or other accounts, so I find that blogging is still easier in this place. A game that I have played about Twenty Years from when I am in Primary School. Maybe not so long but long was I had such early cards that it is really so freaking highly priced nowadays....

Oh well thanks to the people who brought me back into the game today. "883" Derrick Lee, Sky Wong, Allan Ang, Roy Loy. Perhaps we are the "Guai Kas" but to me I really enjoy the fantasy that this game is giving to me. It's something crazy about it that really Woot!

Been busy and really hyper about work that leaves me one year from updating this dead ground. LOL!!! Anyway hopefully that will give me more interesting stuff to update this bloggie. Which I hold so dear about 1 year ago.

- Synn

Google Wave

2009-11-30T19:15:00.000+08:00

Seems Cool Lets Wave!!!
Google Wave...

- Synn

Today in 2004...

2009-11-22T19:52:00.000+08:00

Memories...
I cried...why did she have to go...
Oh well...the picture is not her but it resembles about 80% i guess
It is enough...
Goodnight..

- Synn

Disclaimer...Suppose to post this on 20th...Somehow only now I know that it is not posted...so Blackberry network is also not that good lar...

Put Down..

2009-11-16T19:25:00.000+08:00

I can finally place this piece of my heart on the ground and walk away.
Perhaps it is because I am still holding on...
I can search for that someone that I should be holding on to...
Finally...

-Synn

Phuket Trip

2009-07-11T23:34:00.000+08:00

It is a incentive trip by my company and deemed one of the best trips we have ever had...can't post this blog as there is alot of people who tell me about my blog and I can feel that alot of lurkers around reading it...as H1N1 becomes more and more serious around the world. We had to keep it a secret that we visited Phuket Thailand...Well the quarantine period is now over and I had not even develop any form of symtoms or whatsoever....I can start posting this blog to the public...

I admit that it is one of the best experience in the trip but I'm not totally happy with it. I am without alot of cash to enjoy all the activites and spent the day wondering around the beach and taking photos...Well I took ALOT of photos like 500 plus...and it is after I filtered some of them that I felt that is not good enough and deleted them on the spot...

I am also unhappy that it is another trip that I end up missing someone throughout the trip...I mean she is always on my mind.

I am also unhappy that the trip ended so ubruptly without myself really relaxed...I don't know why...I just feel...not right...

There is a great fantastic hotel by Marriotts Vacation Club.
There is a great yacht that we are on which bring us a whole day of on the sea activities including fishing, snorkoling, bumpy boat rides...phototaking etc...all which can be viewed from my facebook.

At least...it made life better for that few days haaa...Macbook Pro died...and so many things to handle...new plans in the company for the future...new money to be earned...old money to be collected...I need to upgrade more...upgrade to a more powerful myself...

- Synn

The End is Near

2009-06-28T21:26:00.000+08:00

Everything will be okay in the end.
If It's not okay, it's not the end....

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The end of my trip in Phuket is something that I really hate. I really don't want to go back to Singapore...Boring....I will post the photos up later....

I really miss you...hopefully I can see you when I am back...

- Synn

Save Fuel???

2009-06-21T19:47:00.000+08:00

Water For Gas

Wondering if it's true...hmmm

Google Chrome

2009-06-07T20:33:00.000+08:00

Perhaps quite alot of people already know of this browser to surf the net with...and after using all 3 browsers, I am quite happy to say that I'm choosing chrome as my browser after today...not to mention that I totally love Safari on my Mac.... Haha....Made the switch after firefox and internet explorer gives me quite a headache in terms of loading speeds in my favourite websites....

Anyway it's an exciting week that i had...and here I am blogging again in the wee hours of monday morning, perhaps everyone is already asleep right now as I'm blabbering nonsense over here in my blog haaa...

The week is well...great...the weekdays are busy and I must really say that accomplish quite alot of things in this week..after clearing quite a number jobs and also successfully created some things that made my clients so happy that they nearly hugged me for implementing a system that really made ordering of prints so easy and fast.

Some things happened in this exciting week that made the week more exciting is that my macbook pro is now out of commission...with a graphic glitch that showed up on Wednesday and now it's getting more and more frequent resulting that i'm unable to work with it now....*crys*...anyway i'm bring it to the "doctor" later today at the main apple store in ang mo kio. Lets hope the specialists there can help with this boy with his poor mbp.

My office became flooded with water just as weekend started and well it's some idiot which made the pipes overloaded and now water starts seeping to our production area, lets just hope that the machine is not effected by the "flood" haaa...

Here are some pics that is quite interesting to see how we actually tried to suck the water from the carpets...it took like 6 packets of toilet rolls to cover the entire floor area...enjoy....

Time to sleep...got a great week ahead of me...CHIONG AR!!

- Synn

Photoshop Crazy 250509

2009-05-26T01:04:00.000+08:00

Did some masks around and looking around the photos to find the photo that i remembered...however I end up seeing this pic for cutecute...oh well I remembered I took this photo but I nearly forgotten why is her face like that...hahaha...anyway enjoy the effects.....

- Synn

Friends Around Me

2009-05-26T00:31:00.002+08:00

Ahh...life...well it's starting to get monotonous and then suddenly it became chaotic and work from boring and suddenly busy like hell. What the heck happens??? Haha...anyway thanks to all the friends around me haha I'm fine...

Finally the nightmare is over, work is returning to normal....I'm really happy to see that this period of time, how much I have accomplished and how much I can push myself to really do what I needed to do...Although I didn't have much sales and also felt that I didn't alot of things....I actually starting to pick up the pieces that I left everywhere...

Jolin! I know that you read my blog...anyway don't read also nevermind...anyway thanks for the message haaa, stop stalking me around...next time you see me, just pop in and say hi :)...don't be shy ok?

Sing until blur on Saturday with Nigel and Tessa....really long time never sing until so happy already....haha next time must really jio the rest to sing also....Must sing until no voice the next time hahhaa....9 hours!!!!

OK lar...Songz liaoz.....Time to sleep...hehe....

- Synn

Photoshop Crazy 250509

2009-05-25T21:04:00.000+08:00

Flying without Wings

2009-04-26T23:04:00.002+08:00

This is the last and final piece of bloggie to share with everyone today...and that is something that I felt quite interesting...and that is the lyrics for Flying without Wings by Westlife....

:) Imagine that it is talking about One Night Stand....

Everybody's looking for that something (Yeah all guys is looking for it)
One thing that makes it all complete (It's a dream to complete)
You'll find it in the strangest places (Toilet, Hallways, Roof Etc..)
Places you never knew it could be (Yeah never imagined)
Some find it in the face of their children (Opps forget to lock the door?)
Some find it in their lover's eyes (Opps wife or gf is around?)
Who can deny the joy it brings (It's undeniably something interesting)
When you've found that special thing (ONS is special)
You're flying without wings (:))
Some find it sharing every morning (Sharing ONS with a buddy?)
Some in their solitary lives (...)
You'll find it in the words of others (Your friend has ONS too?)
A simple line can make you laugh or cry (Laugh with friends or cry infront of gf)
You'll find it in the deepest friendship (Did it with your friend?)
The kind you cherish all your life (Cherish all memories)
And when you know how much that means (Yeah)
You've found that special thing (lol)
You're flying without wings
So, impossible as they may seem (Sometimes it seems impossible to get agreement)
You've got to fight for every dream (Sure you got to fight for it)
Cos who's to know which one you let go (Never give up)
Would have made you complete (Dreams make you complete)
Well, for me it's waking up beside you (See the lover after the session)
To watch the sunrise on your face (That you conquered her)
To know that I can say I love you
In any given time or place
It's little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you mine (No matter willingly or unwillingly)
And it's like flying without wings
Cos you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings
And you're the place my life begins
And you'll be where it ends
I'm flying without wings
And that's the joy you bring (Yeah...)
I'm flying without wings

Ok I'm crazy...

- Synn

Love...True Love??

2009-04-26T23:02:00.001+08:00

This is a subject that alot of people talk about and even the songs that we are listening, the shows that we are seeing. Also something that can bring intense happiness and also sadness at the same time...Perhaps a type of chemical reaction that is produced when adrenaline is being pushed by a reaction from the heart, increasing the heartbeat and also rises the body temperature causing the sweat glands to react and results in sweat...

Nah...that is the chemical reaction that is theorised...

Recently well there is so many people while being normal at first...is pushed to hell by their boyfriends or girlfriends....some emotionally strucked and caused their downfall in whatever they are currently doing and actually cause them to be changed...I have almost forgotten how it affects me previously well - laughs - it happened more then half a year ago....something that perhaps changed me more then I have ever imagined....

Only until last week I heard more then 3 cases which the boyfriend actually left the girlfriend....and also after sharing their stories with me, I actually felt that the situation is actually mutual...problems arises from both ends...there is nothing like "I have done nothing!" Perhaps this is the problems with us humans...

Bleach - an anime aired in Japan, popular among kids and teenagers and well me...I'm not saying that i'm a kid or still a teenager to like this anime...well actually there is something that I quite like in the show....Ulquiorra said something like that when he is talking to Orihime "Your souls(love)? You Humans said that so lightly, As if it were something one can hold in the palm of one's hand, what is it, could I see it if I tore open your chest? Could I see it if I cracked open your head?"...LOL...oh well I'm a freak I guess....

People who are down, I can feel the air when I was in Arena the other they with my friends, and I can see how this piece of emotion is affecting her....She is downing drinks after drinks and trying her best to keep her composure...I felt well painful...I stayed with her and downing drinks with her...after a while I felt disgusted I am being affected by her as well....went to the toilet and after splashing my face with water I look at myself in the mirror....Have I thought about anything other then work for this past six months...

As I walked out of the washroom and back to the music filled hall of arena....I am sober...I am well is well aware about my surroundings more then what I came here to do...to forget the constant pain that I am feeling when I know that what I have done is not completely right in the company...that what I felt for my colleagues is totally well unnecessary....politics....*laugh*, I shouted with her, can see that she is letting go of her emotions, and I am shouting is because I'm frustrated with myself....

Perhaps Love doesn't just apply to well Love....it applies to friends and people who care about....I sms how much I cared about her...and well it's as a friendship....I didn't want to sink any ship however it has come to a point that I have to force that person out of the ship if needed...I am too soft...I have to be really hard to do it....

Ktv started with the gang yesterday with another gal lost in love...She is sobbing quietly as everyone is singing the songs that they are good at, and well normal in the session...unfortunately they are all slow songs and mostly talks about love...Wearing her shawl and pure magenta dress she crumbles under the weight of the songs....Feeling bad that It is suppose to help her to relieve her stress, I actually did things that perhaps I didn't do much before....I dance and crack jokes, mostly yellow ones, and boy I made her laugh...Jak is doing his best too....the "normal" things that we do became something interesting for her...

Perhaps that is the best i can do to help her to get over him....do your best...

That one hour ride back home on the N1 made me think of her...perhaps when I left, she crumbles too....but she have to stand up and walk her own path, as my path doesn't overlaps with her....I knew that she has found one....and that is what I'm happy with...I am well selfish I know, I left because I cannot take the pressure, I ran....I am not what I can structure myself to be...I need to be free and I am sorry that she needs to be sacrificed....

- Synn

Star Awards 2009

2009-04-26T23:01:00.000+08:00

Just saw the star awards 2009 for Singapore, and then felt that...well it's been a long time since I blog about something about my normal life. Nothing much interesting and well nothing out of the blue...LOL..perhaps I am thinking too much about everything until things becomes monotonous...

How predictable is the Star Awards 2009, although I watched it halfway through...only started to watch when they are starting the best informative variety show prize...which is new this year...and then the camera and the people in the scene is like...well it's Belinda Lee who is going to win...I just have the feeling...and well she did...Even if I didn't watch her show even once...and the scenes did a good job to pre-tell everyone at home that she is going to win....where is the suspense....ok i'm starting to whine again...

How about the scenes to show the people's faces just as they are about to win....LOL...they were showing their faces even before they announced the people...no surprises...

The only entertainment is to hear what they are going to say on the stage...although I thought Bai Wei Xiu is cute enough to say that she forgot who is going to thank and then followed by Zheng Guo Cheng replying her with some sort of teaching to the rest of the artises...Interesting I thought...finally...

After I missed out on the television scene in singapore for about a year....I know that Li Jing Mei is having her 4th child...My god...and what Zheng Guo Cheng said is pretty entertaining....he said something like....Looks like the artistes here have nothing to do at night...funny but yet yeah....singapore nightlife is pathetic...looks like what he said on tv is well ironic....

Finally perhaps the whole production is felt with such bad stuff that I have blogged...but there is still some things that is good, I really like the stage design with the spiral-like style which spins the people who will give out the prizes....that is nice...which is further heightens with the likes of Zheng Guo Cheng which actually did multiple poses when he appears for the variety prizes....I really like how he added different things other then just picking out a piece of paper and then reading out the winner....the invisible ink on the arm or something like oil i guess...with some powder to reveal belinda lee as the winner for informative variety prize and also later using a lighter dissolving ink from the paper revealing Guo Liang from the best variety host award....Entertaining....

Everyone in the entertainment industry in Singapore is doing their best...and yet well people like me is still not satisfied with the likes of people in Taiwan...Talk shows without much limits...Perhaps we are too "guai" in a sense....which means...well boring....

Blah..

- Synn

Photoshop Crazy...

2009-04-16T00:36:00.001+08:00

A few adjustment layers and grabbed a photo which I took with the broken glass...put them together...with phoebe's photo taken when we are at bali...becomes a giant monster trying her best to leap at me breaking the glass....cool :P....

Ok time to sleep....

- Synn

Remember the fallen....

2009-04-05T19:30:00.000+08:00

Remember....Reminiscence.....
It is this time of the year that everyone returns to the same place...even though the family didn't meet up for a long time...we meet up to remember those who have left the mortal world... To me it is the grandmother that loved me when she is alive.... She loves mangos and like jokes...she has left for over ten years now......

The air at 4am is freezing...well I didn't sleep the previous night because of the guys nights out with the rest. I don on my puma sweater and left the house. We had a van to bring us there, and met up with my cousins. We reached about 4.45am. There are no lights in the cemetary...The usually quiet place today is fully of people, and lights from burning of incense papers, etc....

Didn't bring my camera out today...but Alvinz brought his....every year without fail....Snapped a few pictures of the serene surroundings of Grandmum's tomb....Interesting...I remembered so much of the past....Some of which I didn't know still exists in my memory...

Haiz....

- Synn

Photoshop Mood

2009-03-26T20:52:00.001+08:00

In The Mood For Photoshop today well. It has been awhile since I use photoshop at home....Lol I have not been using it to create different manipulations which used to be my hobby. So busy with work that I forgot about this part of myself...Recreating photos and make them my own.....LOL...

This photograph of Sarah and Stephanie is taken in Bali in pitch dark sky with the sea behind near them. Took quite an exposure hit in the photo that render it useless to post in facebook however I didn't delete it to oblivion...The first feeling that gave me is to give it an angelic look.... anyway I'm feeling evil and after a few games of DJ Max's Heart of Witch....I decided to create the illlustration.....

This one from Garry....in Gotham Penthouse....Lol...looks scary eh, anyway he took this photo to show that how injured his eye is after being accidentally poked by Eunice and myself, oh well I'm already drunk at that time....however this pic ends up in my camera....So...he gets Sharingan (Naruto) :D.....

Well I got mood for another one today.....

Kelvin!!!! Lol...he got such a "CHAO JI SA YA REN" pose....so I figured to give him some sort of heaven ripping powers to match the pose....We were at Pasir Ris Park riding bicycle and suddenly he transformed....Jus kiddin, he is enjoying the breeze from the sea and well he got snapped....Saw this pic while wondering around Adobe Bridge....And well inspiration strikes....

- Synn

杀很大！

2009-03-11T19:10:00.000+08:00

The reason I post this is not that I'm liking another girl with the likes of like Liang Wen Yin or Wei Ru Yun....it's about this hype about "SHA HEN DA" in Taiwan...It's about a commercial for Sha Online in Taiwan. Extremely no point....Anyway just do a search for 杀很大 in youtube and see what I mean. How I get to know about this girl (瑤瑤), is from Jackson and Kelvin well and also quite surprised...Because it is like a normal outing and suddenly they just go "SHA HEN DA"...stunned....lol after that they explained then I understand...LOL...quite interesting...

Anyway it is still a busy period for me and I didn't know why am I feeling a overpowering urge to be very active. It even surprised my friends and they all ask me where did all the energy came from? I am stunned too...perhaps it's because of my mood and all the moltivation. I'm being transferred to another portfolio in my workplace and from there I end up with more energy then ever...

I'm finishing work after work, artwork after artwork non-stop and even able to rush non-mental jobs from my other colleagues like robot, and even worked without knowingly to midnight in office. I'm very surprised when Garry said yesterday, "OOI, 11 plus liaoz"...then I know that I have worked more then 14 hrs that day.

Have to say sorry to Girl that I have no time to have dinner with you on monday, seriously I'm overloaded... Sorrwie :) Also thanks to everyone who is encouraging me and giving me more love...To Smicer & Garry, YES WE WILL MAKE IT!!!

- Synn

Inspiration....

2009-02-21T08:57:00.000+08:00

Light....

It has been quite sometime that I updated my blog, been so busy with work and hardly have time even to go to facebook or even catch up with friends on msn. It's bad times now and alot of problems around the world. Even news came that companies become bankrupt overnight or even states in America too. Not only that perhaps Singapore is one of the countries that will feel a large hit in the economic crisis.

With people more declined to spend, business become hard to do and sales drops...however i'm still pretty much able to earn a income that keeps me surviving. Compared with other people in the managements of big companies drawing perhaps 30K salary, what i'm earning is peanuts to them, however to friends whose company closed down due to cashflow problems and bad debts, I'm pretty much (laugh), well...better off.

Reading news has never been more agony to me for the life that I lived, over-comfortable, over-inspired, over-motivated...yeah! There are pros and cons, but well over here we have to be comfortable in order to earn a "survivable" income. Why? It's because what we are earning is enough to keep us running for the month, but not truly enjoying ourselves. Perhaps the benchmark for the word "enjoy" is overrated...but ever walked into a restaurant and then after the bill came, you told yourself that I have to save abit in the current week perhaps skipping a few breakfasts to make up the spendings of the weekend.

Ever wanted to go out to an outing but worried about the taxi fare to go home?

I am having all these worries now...I may have money to spend currently, but in the event that something happen, I will not be able to sustain. Talked to alot of people recently, well i talked to alot of people everyday, I learned that there are different management of lives (This might be common sense but trust me, you have to totally zero to listen to some of them)...One of them confided in me that he is holding on to a management post in a huge company but because of the crisis, he is the first to go because he draws a 30K salary....well that is the reason why he has to sell properties to make up for the 30K salary and to keep up to his instalments of the liabilities....

Sad...?

Something even more sad...i learned that the people who purchased properties last year under the deferred payment scheme is gonna be in deep trouble this mid year to next year. Imagine this statistics...you bought an apartment for $1.2milllion dollars at 1200 per square feet (1000 square feet) and well it's under the deferred payment scheme so you pay a down payment and then the rest you will start getting loans when the apartment is ready (TOP). The crisis started and the apartment is now valuated at only $600,000 at 600 per square feet....So which bank will be able to loan you $1.2 million when the apartment has depreciated 50%? And there is no such thing as 100% loan as I know of in property...Even if there is 100% loan you can only loan up to $600,000....so where to find the remainder?

This is something to ponder about....

Flop? Misconception? I can see alot of people jumping off buildings this June....Or Strait Times will be full of bankruptcy notices....

Well...mind is full of all these...almost no life...Thank God Nigel grabbed me out for some KTV session if not I might be still in the midst of working non-stop for a small profit...well perhaps for this few months I might be still able to sustain...but I might collapse anytime now....my body is starting to show signs that shouts warning to rest...

LOL...

I guess it is a pretty long post...Thanks for reading anyway...I wonder if there is anyone out there....

- Synn

Die Lian, Wei Ru Yun....

2009-02-05T20:46:00.000+08:00

层层迭迭倦倦恋恋
想的脸香的味
缠缠绵绵时近时远
愚人的罪欲望颓废
看见听见永恒的恋
转眼瞬间蝶飞不见....

She is Wei Ru Yun,
in the taiwanese singing competition she said that if she can get her hands on the 1st place which will win 1 million dollars, she wants to build a church. She wants to thank god for what she can achieve...Even though I am not a fan for Christianity and all about god here god there stuff, I feel that she is one of the singer that I like most in the competition. Perhaps it is because when she sing, she will curl her pitch on the end notes. Er~

She has incredible drawing power with her voice, perhaps that is the meaning of vocal penetration...Because of her I might have changed my vocal in terms of feel and flexibility, I hope to let my friends hear what I have found in my vocal that might be the key to better vocals....

Recently, I found myself drowned in the vocals of Liang Wen Yin and Wei Ru Yun, and previously Huang Mei Zhen...I found that all three of them possess certain abilities that really attract me to listen to their songs over and over again. I hear old songs being remixed, new songs being resang with another feel...I found myself old and boring and not daring enough anymore....Why don't I sing 100% in ktv? (Coz it's god damn loud)...that inner voice is coming again...

Anyway check her out...

- Synn

我不是你想像那么勇敢

2009-01-23T20:09:00.000+08:00

"You dropped your smile"
"Did you happen to picked it up?"

- Synn

Last Friday in the Lunar New Year

2009-01-22T21:00:00.000+08:00

Everyone Asked...
Bought New Year Clothes?
Got Take Leave?
Going Where?
Rest Until When?
When Shou Gong (收工)?
Got Go Oversea?
Gonna Visit Friends?
Got Play Mahjong?
Got Eat Dinner?

Err....

- Synn

Neglected XinSynn

2009-01-21T18:33:00.000+08:00

I miss you...I really miss you...
I miss the times that we argue with each other with broken english...
I miss the times that you win using japanese which I am terrible at...
I miss the times that when i sing you complain about the noise in the studying area...
Although I may tell you that I miss the times...you will never read this blog anymore...
I wish that there is computer in the place that you are going...
I wish that there is somehow I can contact you after you are gone...
I wish that somehow you can still use your broken english to motivate me....
I wish that there is perhaps you will become the angel to help everyone in the world....

Angel...
May I call you this in the future...
The ears that cannot hear anymore...
The heart that cannot beat anymore...
I did not write my blog for a while...
I didn't know what to blog....
I didn't know what to write...
Everything seems to be so bad....
The number in my handphone now call to static...

Grief...
I am forcing myself to smile everyday...
I am practically motivating people but I feel down...
Sometimes I laugh and people tell me that how fake I laugh...
I feel sad...
I am really just...don't want to laugh...
I also don't feel like talking...
Listening to the world...
Watching the wind...
And Wishing under the stars...

Mai...
I will miss you...
I'm sure the ten children that you adopted too...

- Synn

Happy New Year

2009-01-01T15:16:00.000+08:00

In this midst of the financial meltdown around the world, the end of 2008 has arrived. The year has been quite torturous, and I am quite happy that I survived. It is a year that perhaps I need some recollection...Even I drank alot during the countdown and I lost consciousness for a while...I woke up and saw the first daybreak of 2009. I made a wish...and also due to some recollection...I bathed early in the morning with cold water after i opened the envelope that I sealed up last year....I didn't fuifill any of the things I wrote on the cold morning of 1st Jan 2008.

Although I am barely surviving the months of 2008 with lesser income, but I am happy. I am happy that I found friends that is willing to help and also friends that appreciated me for who I am. This first blog will be dedicated to everyone.

Happy 2009! This is the sms that I got from friends...I got like 52 sms blessing me for the year....well it is like 5 times more then last year...I thank you all for the best wishes :) This year is going to be tougher, but I can see hope...and also chances for me to really work hard at...perhaps it is also a chance to gain financially and emotionally.

I also wish everyone reading this piece of blog a happy 2009...and may this year brings your dreams too.

- Synn

我要我们在一起

2008-12-29T03:40:00.002+08:00

风远远地吹着我的脸我的手我的发我的心我的眼睛
你远远的呆在那个城那个路那个房那个灯那扇窗口
我静静的放着你给我的CD音乐当作背景
怎么唱都不再煽情
我记得你习惯闭着眼抱着我好像我是你的脸笑嘻嘻
我不知该如何对你笑对你哭张着嘴不理你像个机器
你的世界我的日子好像没有谁对谁发过脾气
过的太快，来不及
唉哟……
你说你说我们要不要在一起
柔情的日子里
生活的不费力气
傻傻看你
只要和你在一起
我说我说我要我们在一起
爱你不费力气
不像现在只能遥远的唱着你

A Song by Fan Xiao Xuan and sang in this video by Lai Ming Wei, a song which well I didn't know this song exist until I saw this video, found the genre quite interesting and well I did my best to sing it in KTV yesterday. Thanks so much to the support by Alex, WeiQi and Mandy, oh well and another girl...really forgot her name...I'm really so bad at names...

It made me thought so much, during this few days, really made me thought alot about myself, about what is happening in my life, perhaps alot of things I will have to really think about what I do recently.

I really love my friends, I seriously love every single one of them. They gave me so much support, and well without you guys, I will really plunge into my own void...into my own world so much....

-Synn

满满的爱

2008-12-17T19:11:00.000+08:00

很久很久以前，有一个单身的男人独自抚养了一个三岁大的女儿。在圣诞节的时候，女儿准备一份礼物摆在圣诞树下。礼物是用了一个金色的包装纸包起来。男人到家的时候，狠狠地骂了女儿，因为当时景气不好，他骂女儿的原因是因为它浪费钱了。

圣诞节那天早上，女儿把礼物带到了男人的面前。“爸爸，这是给您的”男人看着礼物，知道自己昨天太冲动了，原来礼物是买给自己的。男人打开礼物，里面出了一个箱子以外，什么都没有。男人看了以后，以为女儿在开自己的玩笑，又骂了女儿。“你不知道，礼物盒子里因该有东西吗？”

女儿眼中含泪地说，“不！爸爸，我把我的爱都放在盒子里！而且都是对您的爱！”

男人听了知道自己错了，把女儿拥在怀中叫女儿原谅他

圣诞节后的一天，女儿就被上帝带走了。女儿在一场严重的车祸里，离开了。

男人在很久很久候还是把包着金色的盒子留在身边，每当他在任何的时候感到消极或失落，他就会把盒子拿出来，感受那个女儿留给他满满的爱，记起纳三岁大的女儿。

-沁

Winning...Losing....

2008-12-17T17:27:00.000+08:00

从来就没有人问过我长大後到底要做些什么
放弃学业後如今什么都没有没什么可以骄傲
现在写的每首歌对我来说希望可以被人接受
虽然很多人不了解我可是至少我还有个梦
我一个人走一个人看透一个人受
烟都抽的寂寞酒里头带着忧愁
路我自己选择我一个人走
我的家人从不知道我这几年究竟在做些什么
直到这几年我才告诉他们我正在追求一个梦
他们没有反对他们只能在我背後默默支持我
害怕他们一天天的老去我只想带给他们快乐
我不想多说随口说说可能喝的多
我从来就没埋怨过那是因为我有个幸福生活
我一个人走

A song that i feel tremendously touched when listening...Perhaps this is what happen to alot of people felt when walking on their own path. It is the life that perhaps people have undertake. A path that is not mainstream full of prejudice and unsure. I have such a path currently and I am certain that this path will take me to where I wanted to go.

My way of living, it has been accepted by many who truely knows me and I am proud to have real friends now that understands what I think and what I yearn for. The dreams that I hold in my hands...the power that I can create. I solve problems and hopefully someone will come along and solve mine. Perhaps doing my best is not enough...

Losing...

Perhaps this is a stage that everyone have to go through in life in order to gain the right elements to win something...anything. I have been losing...when will I start to gain the upper hand in something...or anything...I am very optimistic in this manner and finally something changed....

I am being accepted...I am winning in simple table talks, and perhaps people don't just see me as a young boy who doesn't know anything but a consultant, someone who truely knows what he is talking about...

Winning...

Winning doesn't means good all the time...sometimes losing is part of the game...losing an argument but winning a contract is a wonderful example. I am not afraid of losing, because it is a stage to walk to the winning track...losing a game...is to ask me to wake up my idea because "HEY..YOU ARE NOT DOING IT RIGHT"...the next time the incident comes up again? I will be well prepared to win...

I am afraid of Winning sometimes...Now some of my friends who enjoyed pool and billiard have changed...I am winning after losing all the time with another group of friends who enjoyed pool and billiard...and now that group that I am winning now doesn't play pool and billiard when I am around...sad...I am just trying to be good enough to win...and now I don't get games anymore...

Anyway I play to win...losing is part of the game...winning is part of the satisfaction...but don't lose the game...

- Synn

Stucked

2008-12-07T23:00:00.000+08:00

It was morning rush hour...as usual i'm late for work...so did everyone that is present in the train with me currently. Well Yishun has something that is good about it, and that is every alternate train, there is an empty one...well I happened to be lucky and got a seat. Through the crowd I happen to see the pretty face of a lady standing near to the door. She has just entered the carriage from Braddell station.

Well she has such a nice face that it melts the boredom of the journey...

As the crowd become lesser after passing through Toa Payoh and Novena, the girl did not move to the more spacious areas in the train...she just stand there....next to the door...and the best thing is that...she is not moving....

I am puzzled...wondering why is she still standing near the door...and even when there is space beside the door which has a transparent tinted glass which people always lean on...she didn't move over to lean on the glass...

Feeling extremely curious, I tried to run every single reason why she stand there despite having more spacious room on the train....Unable to curb my curiousity, i stand up and walk towards her and pop the question....

"Hi Miss...just wondering...."...before I finish...I saw that her skirt was caught by the door of the train..."if you are stuck?"...the comment just flew out of my mouth without me knowing....Damn....

Anyway she smile and gave a helpless nod on the head and say, "I will be alright, city hall station opens this door". I nodded and say good day to her and alight at dhoby ghaut for my transfer....

Hope that MRT will do something like...."Giap" skirt sensor for all the wonderful ladies out there :)

-Synn

手

2008-12-05T03:20:00.000+08:00

沁：让我看一下啦！
丝：看什么啦！
沁：双手合起来，紧紧的...
丝：哪！（快速的将手放回身后）
沁: 我没看清楚啦！
丝：你很麻烦吖！
沁: 快点啦！
丝：。。。干吗啦！神经病！(不愿意的样子，双手紧握着）
沁：紧握双手，左手大拇指向上的话，神志理智，右手大拇指向上的话，容易感情用事
丝：。。。
沁：你还要感情用事到什么时候。。。

- Synn

Worms Infestation...

2008-11-30T20:40:00.000+08:00

Worms Infestation @ Brighton Toa Payoh...Just happen to be there when the exterminators came to take out the worms...check out the photos section for more photos...HUGE Worms...!!! Not for the fainthearted...

My Birthday...

2008-11-30T20:10:00.000+08:00

It's a busy day for me, on that day and even on saturday i'm not even free enough to be online to blog about my birthday, it is even agony enough to not have time to really deal with my online games... But...I'm happy. I must say that I'm really happy living a life like that, well i'm loved by almost everyone around me, no matter friends or relative, i'm a lucky boy. Haha...

Friday is the day which everything in the office is almost completed, the internet connection is up in the last minute, and almost all the connections in the office is done with some hard on testing from me. The office is now 100% operational starting monday. It is a challenge to change the mindset about the new office but I think I am coping it quite well. My level of consciousness seems to be lower these days as I try my best to focus on my work and also to make sure that everything is 100%.

The dinner in Hanabi is amazing, well i like what they serve over there, Japanese Ala Carte Buffet...it is like eat as though there is no tomorrow...almost everything is of satisfactory level of taste...I believe we ate like there is no tomorrow...ranging from Sashimi, Tempura...You name it...and they have it....

Even though I end up not going to Sitex with my cousin to help him with the photography work, I must say that most of the things that happened is unforseen, and well sorry man!!...Also didn't went over to the lenovo booth and say hi to Joanne...as I didn't even turn up at Sitex at all...lol....

Thanks to everyone who bothers to message this boy on his birthday...very grateful!!! You GUYS HAVE A WONDERFUL TIME!!!...I love everyone...thanks for making this day unforgettable...^_^...

- Synn

10 Tips to Survive Downturn..

2008-11-26T20:06:00.000+08:00

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Hope that anyone who see this article will benefit...enjoy :)

Bubbly...

2008-11-20T22:00:00.000+08:00

Well it's thursday, and usually to everyone there is ain't gonna be anything worth mentioning on this damn boring day. However....this thursday proved otherwise...it's fun and not only that, pretty productive...and ALSO..pretty sentimental and nostalgic...

Went to somewhere near tanjong pagar for lunch and there is this New Harbour Cafe & Bar. Derrick said that the food here is damn good and sure enough...judging by the picture above might already gave you a picture of how mouth-watering it is...the chicken chop is...powerful!!!... The food is good, the place is good...and well the topic sort of spoils abit of the atmosphere...overall it's fine....

Once again there has been more improvement in my idea generation in terms of christmas card creation...I have once again broke through the traditional "lost" idea to create something interesting using photoshop and the finger painting technique to create a nicer picture for christmas.

Evening...met A-Sa for dinner at a restaurant in Far East Shopping Center...well i was thought to be good however it is of kinda disappointment when I taste the food today..It was well tee-up previously but today it sucks IMO...didn't eat much and also complained about it to A-Sa and she was said something really true..."It's not about what we are doing or how the food is tasting, it's about the companion or the person you eat with :)"...and gave a small giggle as she bounce bubbly on the seat....

God...long time no see her already...she is still the same....anyway after the dinner it was shopping time, however most of the shops have already start to close for the day, and she managed to grabbed 2 pieces of clothing...powerful....

Went to Cineleisure for Madagascar 2: Escape from Africa...It IS A damn funny show....I can say that it's a hit the moment it starts....one of the best quotes I thought is "We have good news and bad news, good news is..we are going to land immediately, bad news is....it's a crash landing..." Haha.....Those ppl that haven't see...GO SEE NOW!!!! lol...

Need sleep liaoz...

- Synn

The Law of Attraction

2008-11-13T06:38:00.001+08:00

Found something interesting on the net, was talking to garry and leejoon about "the secret" and when I first found out about "the secret" was with changchun last year, and after seeing the chinese version of the book that garry brought to the office, it seems to piece together a thought for me to look for it on the net and reading up on what is being introduced in the book. "THE LAW OF ATTRACTION"...something so simple and yet so powerful. Something which exists all the time but may not be seen, intangible yet with massive force. Hope you people enjoy the read :)

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The Law of Attraction simply says that you attract into your life whatever you think about. Your dominant thoughts will find a way to manifest. But the Law of Attraction gives rise to some tough questions that don’t seem to have good answers. I would say, however, that these problems aren’t caused by the Law of Attraction itself but rather by the Law of Attraction as applied to objective reality.

Here are some of those problematic questions (all are generalizations of ones I received via email):

What happens when people put out conflicting intentions, like two people intending to get the same promotion when only one position is available?
Do children, babies, and/or animals put out intentions?
If a child is abused, does that mean the child intended it in some way?
If I intend for my relationship to improve, but my spouse doesn’t seem to care, what will happen?

These questions seem to weaken the plausibility of the Law of Attraction. Sometimes people answer them by going pretty far out. For example, it’s been said by LoAers that a young child experiences abuse because s/he intended it or earned it during a past life. Well, sure… we can explain just about anything if we bring past lives into the equation, but IMO that’s a cop-out. On the other hand, objective reality without the Law of Attraction doesn’t provide satisfactory answers either — supposedly some kids are just born unlucky. That’s a cop-out too.

I’ve never been satisfied by others’ answers to these questions, and they’re pretty important questions if the Law of Attraction is to be believed. Some books hint at the solution but never really nail it. That nail, however, can be found in the concept of subjective reality.

Subjective reality is a belief system in which (1) there is only one consciousness, (2) you are that singular consciousness, and (3) everything and everyone in your reality is a projection of your thoughts.

You may not see it yet, but subjective reality neatly answers all these tricky Law of Attraction questions. Let me ’splain….

In subjective reality there’s only one consciousness, and it’s yours. Consequently, there’s only one source of intentions in your universe — YOU. While you may observe lots of walking, talking bodies in your reality, they all exist inside your consciousness. You know this is how your dreams work, but you haven’t yet realized your waking reality is just another type of dream. It only seems solid because you believe (intend) it is.

Since none of the other characters you encounter are conscious in a way that’s separate from you, nobody else can have intentions. The only intentions are yours. You’re the only thinker in this universe.

It’s important to correctly define the YOU in subjective reality. YOU are not your physical body. This is not the egoic you at all. I’m not suggesting you’re a conscious body walking around in a world full of unconscious automatons. That would be a total misunderstanding of subjective reality. The correct viewpoint is that you’re the single consciousness in which this entire reality takes place.

Imagine you’re having a dream. In that dream what exactly are YOU? Are YOU the physical dream character you identify with? No, of course not — that’s just your dream avatar. YOU are the dreamer. The entire dream occurs within your consciousness. All dream characters are projections of your dream thoughts, including your avatar. In fact, if you learn lucid dreaming, you can even switch avatars in your dream by possessing another character. In a lucid dream, you can do anything you believe you can.

Physical reality works the same way. This is a denser universe than what you experience in your sleeping dreams, so changes occur a bit more gradually here. But this reality still conforms to your thoughts just like a sleeping dream. YOU are the dreamer in which all of this is taking place.

The idea that other people have intentions is an illusion because other people are just projections. Of course, if you strongly believe other people have intentions, then that’s the dream you’ll create for yourself. But ultimately it’s still an illusion.

Here’s how subjective reality answers these challenging Law of Attraction questions:

What happens when people put out conflicting intentions, like two people intending to get the same promotion when only one position is available?

Since you’re the only intender, this is entirely an internal conflict — within YOU. You’re holding the thought (the intention) for both people to want the same position. But you’re also thinking (intending) that only one can get it. So you’re intending competition. This whole situation is your creation. You believe in competition, so that’s what you manifest. Maybe you have some beliefs (thoughts and intentions) about who will get the promotion, in which case your expectations will manifest. But you may have a higher order belief that life is random, unfair, uncertain, etc., so in that case you may manifest a surprise because that’s what you’re intending.

Being the only intender in your reality places a huge responsibility on your shoulders. You can give up control of your reality by thinking (intending) randomness and uncertainty, but you can never give up responsibility. You’re the sole creator in this universe. If you think about war, poverty, disease, etc., that’s exactly what you’ll manifest. If you think about peace, love, and joy, you’ll manifest that too. Your reality is exactly what you think it is. Whenever you think about anything, you summon its manifestation.

Do children, babies, and/or animals put out intentions?

No. Your own body doesn’t even put out intentions — only your consciousness does. You’re the only one who has intentions, so what takes precedence is what YOU intend for the children, babies, and animals in your reality. Every thought is an intention, so however you think about the other beings in your reality is what you’ll eventually manifest for them. Keep in mind that beliefs are hierarchical, so if you have a high order belief that reality is random and unpredictable and out of your control, then that intention will trump other intentions of which you’re less certain. It’s your entire collection of thoughts that dictates how your reality manifests.

If a child is abused, does that mean the child intended it in some way?

No. It means YOU intended it. You intend child abuse to manifest simply by thinking about it. The more you think about child abuse (or any other subject), the more you’ll see it expand in your reality. Whatever you think about expands, and not just in the narrow space of your avatar but in all of physical reality.

If I intend for my relationship to improve, but my spouse doesn’t seem to care, what will happen?

This is another example of intending conflict. You’re projecting one intention for your avatar and one for your spouse, so the actual unified intention is that of conflict. Hence the result you experience, subject to the influence of your higher order beliefs, will be to experience conflict with your spouse. If your thoughts are conflicted, your reality is conflicted.

This is why assuming responsibility for your thoughts is so important. If you want to see peace in the world, then intend peace for EVERYTHING in your reality. If you want to see abundance in the world, then intend it for EVERYONE. If you want to enjoy loving relationships, then intend loving relationships for ALL. If you intend these only for your own avatar but not for others, then you’re intending conflict, division, and separation; consequently, that’s what you’ll experience.

If you stop thinking about something entirely, does that mean it disappears? Yes, technically it does. But in practice it’s next to impossible to uncreate what you’ve already manifested. You’ll continue creating the same problems just by noticing them. But when you assume 100% responsibility for everything you’re experiencing in your reality right now — absolutely everything — then you assume the power to alter your reality by rechanneling your thoughts.

This entire reality is your creation. Feel good about that. Feel grateful for the richness of your world. And then begin creating the reality you truly want by making decisions and holding intentions. Think about what you desire, and withdraw your thoughts from what you don’t want. The most natural, easiest way to do this is to pay attention to your emotions. Thinking about your desires feels good, and thinking about what you don’t want makes you feel bad. When you notice yourself feeling bad, you’ve caught yourself thinking about something you don’t want. Turn your focus back towards what you do want, and your emotional state will improve rapidly. As you do this repeatedly, you’ll begin to see your physical reality shift too, first in subtle ways and then in bigger leaps.

I too am just a manifestation of your consciousness. I play the role you expect me to play. If you expect me to be a helpful guide, I will be. If you expect me to be profound and insightful, I will be. If you expect me to be confused or deluded, I will be. But of course there’s no distinct ME that is separate from YOU. I’m just one of your many creations. I am what you intend me to be. But deep down you already knew that, didn’t you?

Quoted from : http://www.stevepavlina.com/blog/2006/08/the-law-of-attraction/

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Hope that this whole passage that might take maybe 10 minutes of your time to read will benefit you. Understand that ultimately it is YOU who is the KEY person to dictate your life, so do something about it and stop thinking pessimistically!

-Synn

Interesting...

2008-11-05T18:19:00.000+08:00

Quote: From Richard
Picture from http://starsburst.deviantart.com/
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Life is like being gang rape
If you cannot avoid it , run away from it
You better start to learn
How to enjoy it ...
C'mon Baby !!!
Damn it !!!
Time to give life a good FUCK !!!
Life really sucks ...
And a lousy fucker too ...
That's what life is all about !!!
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Sorry for the vulgarities there, and after reading through it...felt that yeah it's quite damn true....because you are being ganged left right up center...yeah gangbanged....situations come and goes and sometimes situations that were solved...returned unsolved...and it is almost frustrating just to think about it...

Today is a day which my head is spinning all the way and I am surprised that I can still work at this stage...it is amazing that what I have accomplished today in this state...the state of think while my head is like spinning, like you take ICE. Not water in solid form...eh..you all get what I mean.

Was looking through old photos and actually i found alot of photos that is well shot ^_^ and also some which are blur beyond blur...almost amazing how I managed to store all of this rubbish in my computer...:D....some with really pretty girls (slave) and some with really cute ones (peifen) and some with erhm...yeah forbidden...oops...

Went shopping with sister and she mentioned that she wanna get a Ipod Nano but her mini is not spoilt yet...lol...I remember I did a review of the Ipod mini about 5 years ago when I first got my mini and i mentioned that it is a tank...and for now i guess it has just won a new "longlasting" award for being one of the longest lasting Ipod I have used...HURRAH..."lame"...

Ate some stuff in NYDC...maybe i'll update this post with pictures from my sis's HP...with some meatball spagetti (Sp?)...it's damn big plate...=+ =....nearly eat until cry...seh!!. but delicious...POWDERFUL!!!!....

Ok lar...I enjoyed my day today...although with some hiccups with some management stuff...but I will be able to do something about it tomorrow...

ADIOS!!

- Synn

Goodbye

2008-11-01T00:06:00.000+08:00

Welcome to my brain, we hope that you have an excellent experience, please note that the current journey is 1. unrefundable, 2. unguranteed, 3. unprotected. As you decend into the abyss of this forbidden archive...remember yourself and do not be overwhelmed by the emotions or hallucinations that you might experience...as we will not be able to give any insurance coverage in this instance....Goodbye to the past...

As you scroll down the the deepest depths of my brain you will find the forbidden archives that is here since the beginning of this life, it is what you say everyday at night...and the memories of what happen in the day before is reversed back into the brain, processed and archived. The best thing about this "backup" feature is that it is selectable and also very easy to do. The amount of information that the brain can store and archived is dependent on how much you think it can store...and it is actually.....virtually unlimited...

Today I say goodbye to two people...Firstly to Mandy and Secondly to Synn Ver.25.11.

Mandy, it really pains my heart that she has to go and pursue her career in another company, i wish her best of luck in all endeavor and also hopes that she can grasp more of the social experiences as she continue to live here in Singapore. The grown up world...A little girl who stumbles in is at a serious disadvantage. Although I feel for her alot but understand that it is an instruction from the company...there is nothing I can do...Of course it is not neccasary that she will end up badly in the new company... "Xiao Mei Mei", a nick given by me to her...it is not to mock but to help, i had wanted it to remind her that what she has done is immature and she has to stop...the nick is never to make her feel bad or to "stir" anything... Take care Mandy, for now...cya ard!

Synn Ver25.11, it is 1st of November and although the month of October is full of incidents and also a month of intense fighting is going on, a month of miscalculations, and to me the most importantly, it is also the most disappointing month of this year as well. With trust betrayed and also to a month to grow up...I have been saying "Xiao Mei Mei" to Mandy, and end up I should be called "Xiao Di Di" as well...Thanks to Garry for this part, to James as well, and Kelvin for sharing his story. Synn Ver25.11 is now officially discontinued and this new version will be stronger and also increasingly indestructable...

I must also bid goodbye to this girl who used to be the one of my dreams, she was so remarkable, and set me on fire for a period of 3 years, she has been the pillar of support in numerous occasions. Perhaps in this blog, alot of people are waiting for me to flame or waiting for me to publish the stories...But I feel that there is no point. Finger pointing and also flaming doesn't solve problems but aggrevates it. She is now out of my life unfortunately, and also the short messages that she has sent has broken my heart. The dreams that I have shattered, the path that I walk is tinted with blood...my eyes blinded and hands shaking...the sight has been unbelieveable so far....now I believe...

- Synn

I don't know how to Sing...

2008-10-30T20:51:00.001+08:00

I was listening to songs and this lyrics pop up with a tune...and wrote them down and then...well i forgot the tune...damn!!...It's the first time I'm able to write down what I thought. Usually I sing them and then well forget it...

Thanks so much for this few days with Garry and Richard...the ultimate duo that made me feel that like well...they are like one thousand times more jialat then me...and I wonder how it spread as I didn't update anything and didn't change any status...and thanks to everyone for your care and concern....

I'm fine!!! Lol...

I got the lyrics of the song right here...feel free to give me comments...if I have time i will guitar tab them...hang on!!!

已经勇敢几分钟，
眼睛湿得有一点难受，
心情依旧失落
已经狂饮几杯酒，
眼睛里灯光旋转闪烁，
这次我真的不懂，

错，是谁错，难道依旧我认错
对，是谁对，难道我总是不对

听歌唱出我的心事，情歌常常让我心疼，
对或错已经不是绝对
唱歌的人五音不全，听歌的人摇头晕眩，
我知道，“我不会唱歌“

也许勇敢不回头，
寂寞应该不会太难受，
心情虽然失落，
我一定会很快恢复，

错，是谁错，难道依旧我认错
对，是谁对，难道我总是不对

听歌唱出我的心事，情歌常常让我心疼，
对或错已经不是绝对
唱歌的人五音不全，听歌的人摇头晕眩，
我知道，“我不会唱歌“

已经勇敢几分钟，
眼睛湿了，
眼红了，
也要离开

- Synn

Something Interesting To Read

2008-10-24T07:34:00.000+08:00

http://www.scottkelby.com/blog/2008/archives/2203

I was "walking" around the internet and found some interesting articles that made me stop and read for 30 mins. (I know that it took me damn long to read this post)...Richard Harrington is absolutely amazing in his sharing of shooting RAW Photographs instead of just shooting Jpegs. It has bored me before that shooting raw photographs requires alot of post-production in order to send the photographs over to my friends who are in the photos. More often than not, I end up delaying my friends photographs and depriving dramas that might derived from that trip or that outing.

Photography...it's a new soul in my life other then music...recently Garry brought up something about learning how to play guitar and I said that I know how to play a guitar but not really classical and it's self-learned...I got a feeling that perhaps after 4 years that we know each other, I have never shown the musical side of me in regards to instruments...It is also recently that I know raymond actually learned piano during his younger days. Lol...

While i'm writing this blog, I also want to wish Shane a Happy Birthday!!! Older again liao horh...LOL...

Anyway it is another day that i'm in the artistic mood and creates another 6 designs of Postcards from the ground up, and the momentum is nearly to be classified as scary. Perhaps I will meet the deadline of 100 designs a month when I first started this challenge posted by Boss...

I wanted to take some leave next week and perhaps stay at home and rest, grabbing my vitality back, also spend some time with my darling...didn't meet her at all this week...was so tired after work. Spent brain juice like drinking water, and also didn't want to spoil her mood with my "grumpy" face, which actually just a face not bothered to put up with any expression...I'm sorry that i put up that kind of face after work when I meet you but I'm really too tired to do that...it has caused some distance between us. I will try my best to bring back my vitality :D

- JazSynnon

The...As in THE NEW 15 Inch MACBOOK PRO!!!

2008-10-16T07:10:00.000+08:00

This is the latest addition to my want list...the new 15 inch macbook pro. The design is gorgeous. How I came to know about it is from a link from a incidentless (I invented this word) day from Kelvin...he didn't say anything except paste this exact words - www.apple.com

Some background for anyone who doesn't know, it is like when we find interesting website to share, we will just paste to whoever is online at that time on MSN, and kelvin happened to have the most interesting links IMO to date. When he pasted www.apple.com to me...I was like duh!? Who doesn't know that site!? My worst "fears" is confirmed as I didn't went to apple's site for like...2 days? The new design is out...

There was already alot of rumors about this and I have pretty much become numb about it and the first impression to this baby is that...oh my god! It was quite funny as we were about to go on a break for lunch and is in the middle of a meeting, when I click on this link...it is breathtaking...(ok too exaggerated), but hey! It's apple!!!

Another huge news yesterday is that after going to run in the local park..i realised that I have gone 18 seconds slower then my last 2.4km timing..I have become FATTER...damn...

Anyway that is not the huge news that I intended to share, THE huge news is actually about World of Warcraft with the new 3.02 patch...and that patch is HUGE!!! 1.2Gb...it took me like 6 hours to download....but holly...that is so worth the download (anyway you can't play the game without downloading it)...the new profession, the new barber shop...check out http://www.worldofwarcraft.com for more news or any other website that has updates on the patch...i'm sure almost all the players will be stirred to play this patch...anyway it's just...23 bucks a month...

Lastly...I just wanna wish that my venture in unfamiliar grounds will continue to reap rewards as I identify more stuff as I travel in this line of life, and whether will I lose anything that I have now is not an importance anymore...now that I have identified what I have and I what I wanted, I will now start to delete things that I don't need from my life and set a "restore point" (Thanks to windows for this)...More photography, more design, more of my dream, and perhaps if anything is to stand in the way....

I will remove it.........

- Synn

Something I found on the Net

2008-10-14T06:42:00.000+08:00

【射手座11/23-12/21：沒骨氣的落跑大王】

少一根筋有啥好驕傲的，少蠢了好不好！一個太直接的人叫作笨好嗎？不是凡事一針見
血就有效！你沒聽過欲速則不達嗎？這些致命的缺點，通常射手身邊的人都很清楚，只
有射手自己不清楚！因為少一根筋的關係，導致做事瞻前不顧後，說話總是有口無心，
傷害了不少至親摯友，但自己仍渾然不知。你最厲害的一招是，當你把一件好好的事情
搞砸的時候，自己卻當起第一個落跑的人，真的是旋風小飛俠，來無影去無蹤，不知你身在何方，天良何在！
超級自戀狂，從不知鏡子對你的作用是啥？反正照了也沒用，因為你是一個永遠看不見
自己缺點，厚臉皮到家的人！當射手眼中有一個目標的時候，世界就只剩下那一個目
標，導致你完全感覺不到週遭到底發生了啥事，天塌下來也與你無關！
沒看過記憶力太差，還把它當作自己的優點，拿來驕傲地掛在嘴邊一直講的傻蛋，諸不
知世上十個忘了關瓦斯的人九個是射手座的笨蛋；十個把小孩帶出門，忘了帶尿片跟奶
瓶的人九個是射手座的蠢蛋；但是，十個到機場九個忘了帶護照的，就絕對不會是射
手，因為出去玩這檔事，射手可從來沒馬虎過！
你個愛情觀就別提了吧！因為你從來都只有三秒鐘的專情能力，
一看到新貨就像惡虎撲狼一樣的撲過去，絲毫不知羞恥，然後連對老情人說拜拜都沒有，又是一溜煙的消失，
不負責任到家！還有，花也就算了，卻連說謊的本事也沒有，老是被抓苞，什麼唇印、
戲票、給別人的情書啦，通通都留在身上，真是個凡走過必留下痕跡的大白痴！

-Synn

Happy Birthday To Rick

2008-10-09T21:45:00.000+08:00

Just wanna say a HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RICK!!!....

The day went past without any huge events other then rushing jobs like a madman with jobs from internal to agents and also trying hard to grab appointments. Just wanna say a big Thank You to everyone who is giving me support. You guys did a good job.

The mini dinner celebration was held in Sun with Moon Restaurant in Central. It was quite a posh restaurant which uses colors like gold and yellow combined with yellow lighting to give an idea of a golden palace. The food is not fantastic but good...the price is also quite reasonable. The restaurant serves a variety of Japanese food.

Will upload photos after I get it from Fion...who is only person that brings a camera there in the first place...Check back again :D

-Synn

Bali - Last Day

2008-10-07T03:41:00.003+08:00

Tanah Lot....a place which made me feel so much at peace, it is temple that is built by the sea...the waves that rams onto the rocks rams several meters up in the air...it mades you awe at nature. The landscape looks deeply corroded by the force the wave rams at the rock formation. Some knowledge of geography also reveals that this beach is destructive and might disappear in the future.

The destructive nature of the waves opens up a peaceful bay which actually is shallow enough to walk across towards a cave opposite for further worships. This part of the temple has also changed into a place of interest for most tourist as it offers a good sunset view over the horizon. It offers alot of subject for photography however my D60 is left with 2 bars of battery.

Luckily I am able to off the LCD screen and also removed the beep sound from the auto focus function and also the 2 sec review that also eats battery life. I am able to shoot at least another 200 pictures before the battery bar goes down to one.

The day was unbearably hot when we reached tanah lot temple and after some shopping, we left the temple with little memory left behind. Oh ya I drank like 3 bottles of pokari sweat LOL. The beach is good except we have very little time there, which is a waste.

We have to skip uluwantu because of time. Some background of uluwantu from derrick and raymond, like "temple by the cliff", "best sunset in Bali"...god!!!

We didn't have time to go to kuta beach at all because that bloody son of the bitch driver say that it will take us 3 hours to get there, so we planned for contingency plans, and that idiot deprived us of the best beach in bali!!! And this implications which is disappointing, this marks something, the Indonesian driver is very very dishonest...perhaps we will not pay him at all...hahaha

Reason...he thought that we are stupid and brought us for a ride... He told us that the ride to reach the restaurant is around an hour but it's only 15 minutes. Well there is something that derrick is good at, and that is to give a good dressing down and we are off to our own dinner somewhere 15 minutes away from the airport.

Anyway we did went to Kuta beach, however it was very dark at night and we couldn't see anything. The traffic there was well slow but all in all it took us only 20 minutes to reach Kuta Beach as raymond and derrick confirmed that it is very far from our location. It further flares me up...Kuta beach...gone from the itinenary....just because of such punk stuff that is given from the driver and the guide....

-_-

That is the end of the Bali Trip....short but fruitful, and reaps rewards in improvements in my photography skills by leaps and bounds...thanks to the guidance from Raymond and Garry, i am finally able to shoot pictures that have their own story, own dimensions....and I am very happy with my D60 and although there are opportunities to upgrade to a D80, i guess I'll pass....

I will try my best to get the photos out as soon as possible....

- Synn

Bali - Day 2

2008-10-06T02:34:00.003+08:00

I have been blogging almost everyday now that I am on vacation in Bali via my Itouch...it seems never to run out of battery as I type on the notes function and then send it to my email which i can in turn make it into a delayed blog on Blogspot...it's an idea, but it will be delayed by a few days depending on how long it will take for me to do it when i get back to Singapore and then gets bogged down by the avalanche of work...

It's relax day in Bali today as the plan is to do nothing and Nua...and it's a level which I am capable of like...wearing no shirt and showing off my huge belly (They call me Italy...guess what It means YI DA LI....). Lol it's something to stir me and finally they found something new....and I'm glad...Well it actually inspires me to do something about this Belly that I have developed after years...Something which darling has always pointed out to me...Sorry darling to only do something about it until now....

Anyway that is no the point, the day was spent suntanning, massage and swimming. The massage is well...DAMN GOOD...oh my...and it costed...$15 bucks...cheap cheap....That is the only money that I have spent so far....$15 dollars!!! 100,000 Rupiah....and it's massage outside in the windy outdoors of the Villa...true Javanese Massage (I think so, don't bash me on this)....and it cracked almost every part of my body that can be cracked....felt that I'm especially vulnerable at this moment...Lol...

After the massage and then suntanned for the oil to dry....then guess what...I jumped back into the pool...and stayed there for the rest of the day....with a few bottles of Bintang Beer and some noodles...I stayed by the pool side until it's dinner time at Beach....it's damn nice....took some photos....let me show you once I got back to Singapore...i'll attach a pic or two.

Eh Correction...actually went to see sunset first...then go to the beach house for dinner haaa...show you guys sunset first...then the beach house for dinner....

BBQ dinner by the seaside...what can be more intriguing that that!? Sunset, the slight taste of salt in the air, the smell of fresh seafood floating around, it made my saliva drips like a mini waterfall...What we ordered is sinful, and the food is irresistable. Definately a trip that is worth remembering....The bill? 437,000 Rupiah...GOD...that is so damn cheap....

It turned out that the bill is wrong, after bathing, the guy from the beach house actually turns up in our villa asking for payment to the things that we have gladly devoured a few hours ago...it's showed a more possible price, 2.3 million rupiahs...which is about $400 bucks....for 16 pax....fresh seafood, fantastic atmosphere...

Went over to Villa 3 for some activities and end up playing Big2 with Eunice, Sarah, Stephanie....well they bully me....sobz...lol just kiddin, anyway we end up playing Donkey as Rick didn't know how to play Big2....it was fun...I end up being the Donkey...damn I always lose...LoL...

Anyway check out the photos page for more photos....

Gonna sleep liaoz...tomorrow is a damn long day....

-Synn

Bali - Day 1

2008-10-05T00:47:00.001+08:00

I am writing this piece of blog while laying down on the sofa in the Villa which we rented for our stay in Bali, the name is called Bali Kubu Rama Villas. We rented a total of 2 Villas which is No.2 and No.3. Derrick and Family, Leejoon and Raymond, Mr Chua and myself occupies No.2 and the rest of the group goes to Villa No.3. Right now, I'm actually enjoying a glass of red wine and watching some crap on TV... Seems like everyone else is concussed after a day of non-resting and not to mention about I went on without sleep for almost 48 hours...I'm really tired....

The red wine seems to instill that sleep into me almost instantaneously as I struggle to stay awake in the Villa...we are talking about the trip and also some itinenary stuff as some schedules are changed due to an unforseen Ramadan festival that renders the road towards Kuta Beach unpassable...According to the tour guide, it will take roughly around 3 hrs stucked in the jam in order to get us unscrathed to Kuta Beach....well it's "THE BEACH" to go if you travel all the way to Bali...God...I wanna go there!!!

Leejoon seems to be very sick just by looking at her face, she hardly smile at all today...it made everyone of us worried about her condition and after some medication, i bet she is fine...the rest is great except for the swarm of mosquitos that seems to be having a 'buffet' supper with everyone of us in the living room.

I actually stopped writing for like 20 minutes as I heard a loud scream from the 2nd floor of the Villa...it is a girl and as I dart up the stairs towards the girls' room, the only thing I saw when I reached were people rolling around in the room. The situation was that Shawn lead the jeff and rick to scare the gals...and guess what they succeeded...Lol...as everyone is rolling on the floor laughing and well some rolled on the bed (That's not the point)....What is totally hilarious and bogs the mind is that...Fion is still sound asleep...

Everyone is like....WTF!?

The scream I swear was damn loud and in a place as quiet as the villa, it travels and multiply...and there she is...still soundly asleep as a log...This is paranomal...It's brilliant! I mean you can sleep pass such a commotion which involves 6 people in the room rolling around laughing at a deafening level and still sound asleep???

...........

Speechless...I think this will remain as the "stirring point" of this trip....

- Synn

Finally Bali Trip...

2008-10-04T04:30:00.002+08:00

I am at the airport while writing this...was singing Ling Cheng San Dian Zhong by Zhang Zhi Chen,　I didn't really sleep yesterday, because of the excitment of a trip that I can use as an escape from all the crap that I'm facing in Singapore. Well the night is especially cold and I'm glad that I brought my jacket with me, it's freezing... The arrangement was abit screwed up as Sarah, Shawn, Jeff, and me reached the airport early at 15 mins to 4.

The rest of the people were at the edge of concussion when I'm sitting at the kopitiam writing this. Bali...I thought that everything today is going to be fine when I take a look at Imail just now and found that I have screwed up something important again...perhaps I shall call Xueli to help me send that important file later in the morning. It's Saturday after all, she should get more sleep... Darling has especially say goodbye to me just over 4 hrs ago. The memory is still so vivid.

I love my Itouch so much, and even overused and full of scratches behind the reflective surface, and well 4 white dot on the screen already, it grants me this flexibility to write so much on my blog...well...just need to find an internet connection and I will be fine :D

Time to check in...

"BALI, HERE I COME!!!"

-Synn

Happy Childrens' Day

2008-10-01T00:14:00.000+08:00

Happy Childrens' Day to everyone who takes their time to take a look in my blog, well i'm actually very busy to update my blog nowadays but thanks to my Ipod Touch, I am constantly able to blog while I have the free time whether is it during lunch or on the way home on the train. Today is Childrens' Day and I wish to wish everyone a Happy Childrens' Day for those who is still a kid or a children at heart.

I came across this poetry on the net and I figured that I should share with everyone in this post, it is something that I feel alot about. Our homes, our lives, and to some extent, our environment...Enjoy...

We are younger,
But feel much older
What we are,
But the children.

Those who stand silent
In the acid shadows.
We stand straight
For our parents.

No squabbles
As we watch
The slow painful killing of the world
We are to live in.

But we are the children
Who stand by the apple tree
And listen to the sounds
Of our mother earth dying.

We hear,
Her writhe as trees are cut,
Her cough as her sky clogs up,
We hear her become angry.

Everyone becomes angry
But the children.
People are seperated
By the great divide.

And we in the middle,
Are those who don't matter,
Were are the ones not blind.

- Synn

Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep

2008-09-22T19:37:00.000+08:00

Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep is a website which is dedicated to parents who gave birth to children whose life ended before it began. Some died in the mother's womb, and some died in shortly after birth.

Life is something that is given by parents whose the female spent nearly ten months in pregnancy to deliver. A pearl in the making, the process which crystallized love. The site pictured some of the most painful stories in the world. Children who have to be placed under life support the moment they are boned. The most painful process comes to the decision of the parents to pull away the life support equipments and needles which bored holes in the young skins.

The sight of the life support machines that so support the life of the child being detached. The sound of the machine started to indicate the force of life seeping away.

Beep....Beep....Beep....

And finally it all ends with a loud Beep........which extends for a long time....the monotonous mechanical sound which so heartlessly depicts the end of the short life the child. That also marks the end of the dream of the hopelessly wounded couple....

I stumbled onto the site after watching Scott Kelby (Photoshop User TV Host, Publisher of the book Lightroom 2 for professionals), presented it in the show...It is very sad, and when I look at the hundreds of photos that is on the site which didn't depicts any sense of death, instead it shows love. The love that binds the young souls to their parents forever remembered in the minds.

It calms instead...

Emotion.....

- Synn

Tagged by Jersey

2008-09-16T06:16:00.000+08:00

It has been a while since I took part in these chains...and well i'm in involved in may "Chain Quests" in WOW...i figured I'll do this one too....

Currently – working

Current time – 10.00am
Playing - Nah Working...

Pending - Thoughts to improve my product

What's new? – Bali Trip :D

Real name – Jason

Nickname – Synn(Overall), Syn(Forums), Jaz(IRC), Jaszy(IRC), Esca(IRC), DJ Synn(DJ Max, Forums)

Married – Nah, in relationship :D

Male/Female - I'm a Guy..

High school – We know it as Secondary School...:D

College – Nanyang Polytechnic

Are you a health freak? - Don't think so...I ate from Insects to Huge ones :D

Do you have a crush on someone? – I hope I don't crushed people

Do you like yourself? – Yes I love myself, so i don't commit suicide...

Surgery – Nope....
Person you see in the morning – I scared myself with my looks again....urgh...
Award – Ok lar I won some singing awards...
Sports you join in – Soccer, Basketball, Pool(?), Billiard(?)

Vacation – Anywhere with nice scenery...I'm a photography Freak...

Concert – Anything that is nice...I'm quite Sui Bian

Drink – Anything that is Drinkable....

I'm about to – engross in my work...

Your future - have alot of money, got wife, got kids, got house, got car, got .......

Want kids – maybe laterz...

Want to get married – still want freedom....

Careers in mind – Engross in things that I do best...

Which is better?
Lips or Eyes - Lips
Hugs or Kisses - Kisses
Shorter or Taller – Taller

Romantic or Spontaneous - Spontaneous
Sensitive or Loud – Sensitive
Troublemaker or Hesitant? – Hesitant

Have you ever,
kissed a stranger – Yeah...some I don't even remember...next time when you ask a question...remember to ask where you kissed.... >_<

Drank bubbles – I blow bubbles in the drink...then poke the bubbles using the straws...
Carbonated drinks - Coke!

Ran away from home – Yeah....ran away from home for 2 hours...eh...that don't count yeah...

Liked someone younger – yeah..

Broke someone's heart – yup, I broke a few of them...some until now I'm quite depressed...I'm sorry...

Been arrested – Yeah...for loitering at void decks...then later released as I'm an innocent bystander...talking about Suay eh...the Police say sorry...lol....
Cried when someone died – Nope....I feel that sometimes Death is better then Living On in Singapore....

Do you believe in,
Yourself – I Believe in myself more then I believe others...

Angels - Yeap...why don't ask me about heaven and hell??

Is there someone you want to be with right now? – Yeah, with everyone...oh yeah I nearly killed the person who asked me to define everyone...so don't try...

*tag

-Whoever is interested

Are you Burnt Out?

2008-09-09T09:34:00.000+08:00

I think I am....

Upskirt Action in the Olympics

2008-09-03T05:33:00.000+08:00

Recieved an email from a friend, and I don't want to say who he/she is well..enjoy this one :D...

-Synn

24 Hrs KTV with Jesslin

2008-09-01T15:05:00.000+08:00

Jesslin and I went to the KTV yesterday on sunday for 24 hrs...oh well it maybe very crazy but look at the picture..i mean it's real and it is really crazy...we really sing until our throat started turning dry and that it is really torturous that we continue to sing even though we only had one drink...(It is expensive to get another one). Anyway it was like this...so we went on to sing until 3pm the next day which is just now....

@_@

Ok I was kiddin, anyways it is a technical error on the party world side which enter 4 hrs of KTV into 24 hrs..thought that it is quite interesting so I snapped it down...

My my! How time flies and how long since I last met her, and previously from that girl that I know she has now turned into a fine fine lady. Still the same her except I am not in NS and she is not below 20 years old. Catched up with her with most of the things..just that we are suppose to meet up with Ann in the first place but unfortunately she is not free...but there are alot more time in the future. :)

Hope that there will be more outings in the future and hopefully Ann can see this and join us ^_^...

- Synn

Singapore Comex 2008

2008-08-30T21:28:00.000+08:00

Comex is always packed with people and this year, it is no exception. The layout of the show is very interesting, it stretches from the 1st floor to the 6th. With the number of people who is eager and trying to get it...we are well...jammed at the entrance to the show...the show this year features alot of new players in the booths and well I'm not going to name them all out and one of them belongs to a client and friend of mine.

Oh well saw Cassandra and Albert at the audio-technica booth as expected, talked to them a awhile while Garry is paying for his headphones. He bought something which is small and compact for the reason to wack PSP...to me the quality is pretty sharp for a small headphone like that, and it is really a good buy...it made me well...drooling for a new headphones as well...however tight budget I have though...gotta brush those thoughts aside...

Perhaps it is the time that we went there, it is about 5pm close to 6pm...most of the booths are without the showgirls, and well that is one of the 3 reasons we are there in the first place...so both of us is abit down for a while until 7pm...when we saw Sony's performance...it jolts me for a while and I yelled unregardless to who ever is beside me and may be turned deaf because of that..."HEY, SONY always have quite good showgirls:" to Garry...and he was like...yeah!

Anywayz we went to the Sony booths at L3 after we shop around for lobangs...what interests us is like $269 bucks for a 1TB Harddisk....god...$33 bucks for a 8gb CF card..woot..how inexpensive each storage media is costing...i must say CD and DVD storage is completely brushed away by communters around at the show...

Anywayz enjoy the photos that I have posted in the albums...

-Synn

Me Is Me!!!

2008-08-20T09:17:00.000+08:00

Crazy over Liu Li Yang.... Me is Me...and no one will brand me as what I am not!
No matter what happens...I will be Me!!!

我就是这样天马行空的磁场
或许你还不习惯我在等你变成拍档
我就是这样注定和你不一样
谢谢你欣不欣赏我的风格是限量

摊开的手掌柔软又刚强
(十指纤长指尖藏着一鼓力量)
安静的目光温柔却也狂放
(眼神明亮有好多话想对你讲)
我独特的模样是全新的信仰

我就是这样天马行空的磁场
或许你还不习惯我在等你变成拍档
我就是这样注定和你不一样
谢谢你欣不欣赏我的风格是限量
Rap(Feat.Tank)：
你不会躲在不长不短的裙摆
耍无赖太依赖都不符合你的心态
乖乖早过了时代怪怪才有人青睐
不需要表态让大家慢慢猜

既古代又现代爱HIP HOP也爱李白
是女孩像男孩这次出场注定精彩
我嗅到英雄神采我瞄到美人姿态
多变的节拍接下来该是你跩
诗人的滥觞刻板的印象
(没有文字足以介绍你的出场)
你爱晒太阳我赏我的月亮
(井水河水各自徜徉各的海洋)
想发出一道光让世间不平凡

我就是这样天马行空的磁场
或许你还不习惯我在等你变成拍档
我就是这样注定和你不一样
谢谢你欣不欣赏我的风格是限量

温柔倔强勇敢都是我
我拥有太多不同基因
安静吵闹沉默都是我
分钟不同的颜色
我就是这样天马行空的磁场
或许你还不习惯我在等你变成拍档
我就是这样注定和你不一样
谢谢你欣不欣赏我的风格是限量

我就是这样天马行空的磁场
或许你还不习惯我在等你变成拍档
我就是这样注定和你不一样
谢谢你欣不欣赏我的风格是限量

－沁

歌手：刘力扬歌曲：眼泪笑了

2008-08-18T19:01:00.000+08:00

Joanna Ang, one of my friends which i know not long ago, not well enough, and I am quite slow to find her blog, and I stayed there fore at least one hour. I didn't read anything on her blog, but I just stayed at the page...listening to a song...a song that leaves me without a doubt...a trail of tears....I sang...I hum...I really really like this song alot...

Thanks Joanna, perhaps you didn't know you helped me...but I really appreciate the song...

比想象中更痛你真的没回头
我命令眼泪不许失控
回忆不跟你走都挤在我心中
我就有责任让它值得被珍重
谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候
我眼泪都笑了谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着找回光和热
面对你的时候我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客因为路有些曲折
是美的
你眼泪都笑了谁还会哭呢
来不及完美的就唱首骊歌
想起你的时候我不是卑微的
反而我没有遗憾因为我已爱过你
深深的
心碎成了沙漠就快开凿绿洲
我没有时间不知所措
你温柔的双手本就不属于我
又何必在乎它以后属于谁呢

-沁 Synn

End of This Part Of My Life

2008-08-18T18:00:00.000+08:00

The river usually meanders as the flow of the water starts to slow down and the force of the water is not able to travel straight due to the constant resistance to the soil. It is also the most difficult part of the journey for the water that started in the mountains and is going to end at the sea.

This is also the most difficult part of this part of my life. As the end is immediate, it started fast, and ends fast. As a matter of fact, i'm speechless...I didn't want to end this part of my life so abruptly. Well reality is always very cruel, and well i'm left alone...in my room...writing my story. Writing the end of this part of my life. I have changed so much that I sometimes forget about who am I, or what should I do. This End...like all movies...like all stories...it's the End. Perhaps to some other people, this is a beginning.

The beginning, or the end.

There is so much endings in my life...and so to everyone's life. When something ends, something begins, and this is the beginning of another part of my life. My own life...I, myself, and me.

-Synn

David Cheang's Life Story

2008-08-18T10:31:00.000+08:00

It was in the beginning of 2007 when i know Mr David Cheang in HSR. Well probably one of the more friendly person i know at that time. (When I was still greenhorn, let people bully) well it was a pleasure to know him.

Well i was surfing the web just now and i saw this...usually new paper's pages don't really stay there for a long time...so i figured that i should do a screenshot for my bro.

Just some words to say, well bro...it has been tough, well i'm glad that you didn't give up on yourself...success is usually given to the people who really didn't give up, and aspires to succeed. Congrates to your "chu", or "chia", perhaps you can give me a ride around :D....$400,000...fainted....

^_^...

I wish that one day I will be like David, "wu bor", "wu chu", "wu chia", "wu kia".

I wish it will come true soon...
- Synn

Patriotism

2008-08-17T19:16:00.000+08:00

Was with the others when we were walking in vivocity and in front of us we see huge crowds of people. Oh well, since curiosity is part of a normal human being, we went over to see what happen. It is a tele-cast of the Olympics table tennis match between China and Singapore. It is almost like the stadium as people made noise, and when Li Jia Wei wins a point, they went "Yes!, Yeah!"...Lol whoever dare to say that there is no Patriotism in Singapore?

Marche in Vivocity...good food :D
It is delicious!! Should try :D

- Synn

Marriott's Hotel Live Band

2008-08-17T07:58:00.000+08:00

Marriott's Hotel Singapore Live Band

Was quite bored outside in Orchard one day in July. well I didn't have time to blog and i was actually thinking of what to blog that won't be boring lol....well...i'm a boring person anyway. So i brought my gf to this pub just below Marriott's Hotel. It was quite peaceful at first, the place is very nice, quiet and just a occasional sound of glass knocking into each other.

The lighting is yellow based that casted yellowish glow onto most of the furniture, all sense of colors is distorted by the dim lighting. What didn't change is the subtle sound of people talking in a distance and a occassional smell of burnt cheese flowing through the air into my nostril that makes me hungrier, and hungrier.

The thing that is different is that at 10.30pm sharp. Two girls that looked perfectly normal in the distance stepped onto the stage. English speaking, with a bit of personality. One "armed" with a guitar, the other a violin. They are in contrast in each other, no matter the pitch of their voices, to the size of their instruments. Oh well, they are both string instruments by the way, so that is one of the two things that is common among both of them. The other well it's the magnificient projection of their vocal.

Fantastic! Bravo! These must be the words that is racing through everyone's head after they finished a song that I have never heard before. The girl in white introduced it as a indie release that alot might not have heard before. Well my memory is fading after so long, I just couldn't remember the name of the song. The voices of both girls is crystal clear, and the sound of the instruments are crisp and well, there is nothing to really complain about except after 30 mins in the session they have to stop for a rest and some drinks.

It's not up to me to judge their performance but the reaction of the crowd...it is positive. Perhaps it's one of the better live bands i have heard ... nice to visit ^_^...

Fa Cai Plant

2008-07-21T20:36:00.000+08:00

Recieved a last minute call from Mum, asking me if I am free to go over to Ang Mo Kio for dinner. It was a dinner to celebrate an anniversary for a chinese god named Nan Hai Guan Yin, Bodhivasta of the Northern Sea, Bear with my spelling :)

Well it was a night of chaos, why do I say that? It is because although we are trying to eat, and there is this guy who host an auction for most of the items that is contributed by the believers. Oh well I added my own contribution as well, which is shown here, oh well it's $100 bucks :D. It's the lowest contribution btw. Most of the items out there exceeds $1000.

Well, that is what left over the day...well i didn't forget about this blog...it's still alive :D

- Synn

Engrossed by WOW!

2008-07-08T06:44:00.000+08:00

I must say that I'm throughly engrossed in the mythical world of "World of Warcraft", the game mechanics, and all the action, how deep the game is, how blizzard has blend in so many things into one solid game. I have been playing non-stop for the weekend, and I must say that I'm really tied to the game...although i'm still in the free month trial...

Finally cleared most of the jobs that I have on hand and getting ready to pounce onto some Huge projects and all my clients suddenly came back to me wanting to do things, just meeting them alone has drained me of my energy everyday when I reached home. My performance for DJmax Portable 2 dropped significantly, showing signs of tiredness and unable to focus.

My best song "Hello Pinky" dropped an approx. 40000 points from 735892 to only 391022 average. It made me throughly depressed however seems that I reaped most of my mood from my work. It gave me some feel of belonging... I should get my camera out... I need more creative juices...i need more....Ahhh. MY PRECIOUS!!!

Oh damn, still remember what i saw during the weekend when i'm listening to Lord of the Rings: Return of the King on channel 5 last Saturday...MY PRECIOUS....creative juice....我的宁感....寻找失去的宁感！

Well gotta welcome on board a new colleague named Bella, oh well, took me a while to remember her name however I lost her chinese name completely...I doubt anyone will be reading my posts...well just HALA!!..

- Synn Seh!~~~

Army Reservist

2008-06-22T18:28:00.000+08:00

I am a nsmen. 3 days has passed and i must say that it is one of the most time-wasting activity in this whole year. So far is having to move to a location and waste time, I had wasted like 8 hours of my saturday sitting in a training shed in camp. This is truely an experience because when I am working, I don't have the luxury of having waste time like that.

Argonomic designed time schedule...that is what we all need, and when we had planned all of our activies nicely in camp, we are forced to stay back in the camp until a certain time. Well, we end up...not caring about the time. I mean who will want to care about finishing the tasks with top-notch timing when the book-out timing is the same.

Everyone in my Signal Company deserves a credit for making everything so fast and the processes seamless even through the equipment operation tests/exams. We end up..spending the next 2 hours waiting for instructions to book out...outrageous...

So if asked for a TRUE after-action review which by short AAR..I feel that this 3 days...Sucks...and the CO...well...we are RESERVICE...well think of it this way...you can charge me when you read this...

- Fired up and Hot Synn

A minute like "Sai"

2008-06-04T06:35:00.000+08:00

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_Naruto_characters#Sai

One of the characters that i found very interesting in the naruto manga...and his sense and also talking without going through the emotional worries that is carried over to the listener...made him the number 1 person to be hated just through a normal conversation...i think it somehow resembles me in real life...

Recently i found myself talking against the flow again, I didn't have the flair to talk "normally" in like in may. I was like...being struck dumbfounded and didn't know what to talk about anymore, or should I say, i am like...unappreciated. I was thinking about some things that was happening, and i thought that this is weird, and there is no logic.

I was surfing the web yesterday when i waited for darling to come online after she went home, and i didn't know what was I typing and I came across this:

http://www.lovingyou.com/content/advice/couples/content.php?ART=goodrelationship

I didn't know but i feel that I was snapping, and didn't know how to react towards certain things, I wanted some things and why did I have to sacrifice so much to gain it. I know that...i have been compromising too much lately, i have been compromising to everyone at work because of their opinions on me and losing my own opinions afraid to people's eyes, I have been compromising to my family by agreeing to things that I don't want to agree to keep the peace. I have been compromising to friends because I am so afraid to lose them if I don't. And after all this i still felt unappreciated...

What the hell am I thinking about...

I dreamt about being alone, in a realm of darkness, there was no ground, no sky and no horizon. It is darkness but somehow I can see my body my hands, I feel cold. There is nothing, it's screwed up, I ask myself why am I in this void. What has bring me here. None of this questions seems to be answered. There is no echo, i shouted but there is no echo, no reply, and the silence is killing me...

"Dull your senses and your mind will be sharp"

I have to wake up, wake up and make sure that I am not compromising on my own welfare, and also cannot be too easy on people, even if it means making people hate me again, I have to do it, it is either they hate me or i feel miserable...i don't care...i want to feel happy again, i want to be jumping around again, i want to laugh, laugh heartily, without worries, without any stress...

"Perhaps you should die"

This is maybe some people who tell me, thee who have no worries at all is a dead person...thee who have worries but is able to resolve it will be a happy person, i will be the latter...

Oh I read from that with a book...

- Synn

Interesting SMS

2008-05-22T05:59:00.000+08:00

I recieved an sms a few days ago, so i decided to share it with everyone :D

1月25日，雪灾＝天灾

3月14日，藏独＝人祸

5月12日，地震＝地灾

1+2+5=08

3+1+4=08

5+1+2=08

08年08月08日奥运会巧合？

地震发生那天正好是距08年08月08日奥运会还差88天在加这个，都是巧合！

真是佩服李白，在唐朝就知道今年奥运，地震了：

北暮苍山兰舟四

京无落霞缀清川

奥年叶落缘分地

运水微漾人却震

前四个字－－－北京奥运

后四个字－－－四川地震

Abit wu liaoz....but quite interesting indeed...

-Synn

A minute of silence

2008-05-20T05:24:00.000+08:00

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2008_Sichuan_earthquake

A minute of silence to the people who died here. May alive and trapped get rescue and the dead carry on their journey to their afterlifes...

A minute of silence...

- Synn

Digital Space

2008-05-13T07:32:00.000+08:00

Chong Er

Was looking at some older photo collection albums of mine, I actually discovered that, I have so many... -_-". As a scale...I have like 24gb (well closed to :D it was 23.789.....gb nvm..) of downloaded photo contents which I have cleared to like 1gb...LOL. Most of those are through 10 years of collection that 1) i have never browsed at 2) I have no idea I have it, 3) Just a plain want.

I mean these lot is on virtual space and perhaps if these lot is occupying reality space, I would have thrown them all away like eons ago. Digital space...it's so cheap and not only that, the versatility is so high. You can store all sorts of things there, photos, videos, documents, etc...etc...

Are we taking all these digital space for granted? I have bought like hard disk, CDs (in the past), DVD, perhaps even blu ray in the future to store all these contents. Are these really need? Perhaps to the rest of my friends, Porn. Realplayer, Windows Media Player, Quicktime, XVID, DIVX etc...The amount of space need to store P*rn...Omg...I got friends that stored 500gb of P*RN!!...Why do they need to store that much??? (/me grinning @ ***** <-- there is 5 asterisks...you know who you are...). I was like...GOD...WHY DO YOU NEED SO MUCH P*RN!?

In my humble opinion, I feel that we only need the most 5gb (LOL) of quality ones...High Definition...THATS IT. No Mass production crap (The Japs are good at it, or what...) Quality not quantity...24 hrs can watch how many % of the 500Gb of P*rn!? (I'm still at it)

Nevermind that...I'm just glad that I have cleared nearly 80gb of space just yesterday...So happy...I don't need to spend another 100+ on a new hdd....I just did something simple...do I need it? Need...i keep, don't need, delete and empty trash...it is that simple..so do some housecleaning my friends!!!

And Trust me *****, you don't need 500gb of PORN...Get a Girlfriend...she is worth a lifetime of PORN...yeah?

- Synn

Disaster Falling

2008-05-09T09:03:00.000+08:00

It pains my heart to see this...The news have been reporting, and so many people are frustrated. The world sent help, but the aid teams are delayed. There are humans out there! Hey! There are people! Not animals man. God damn it, it is human hell out there in Myanmar.

Cyclone Nargis struck the lower deltas of Lrrawaddy last saturday killing a toll of maybe 100,000 dead in today's strait times. It is horrible to even imagine what kind of lifes are these people having over there. The aids and everything was sent by UN and there is this heck care people over there refusing/delaying visas of the professionals that is suppose to be there helping THEIR people. I cannot understand what the heck is going on over there...Perhaps politically...but letting people die like that as if they are valueless pieces of meat living like zombies...what the...

I think I lost it when I picked up the papers today, this is ridiculous. Nargis, 190km/h winds and then followed by a tsunami hit the area, and that's it....big time...As time goes by, without the clearance by the military government in Myanmar, more people is going to die due to shortages of water and food. Until they pull through this period, they will gain something valuable, and that is thanks to the floods that is brought by the weather. The people in the lower delta areas will be able to grow good rice crops ready to harvest at the end of the year.

That perhaps is one of the good news that the people over there now can depend on, however it remains questionable if the people can find their loved ones which some of them is missing and maybe dead. Perhaps that is one of the nightmares that he people over there are having.

"It is better to have the corpse of your loved ones, then having no news at all"

It feels....sad looking at this words....what enrages me the most is that, there are Myanmar officials that basically dumps the corpses of the victims into the sea off the coast of Bogale township in the Irrawaddy. When i reach this part of the paragraphs, I feel a moment of anger and suddenly felt sad. Those people who are dead, without proper burial, or identification, was disposed off...whatever will happen to their loved ones???

"Time is running out"

-Synn

Living In a Crazy Life

2008-05-07T06:53:00.000+08:00

Recent activities has left me nearly breathless at night, I mean there is so many things that is on my mind and I cannot do it now. Not to mention that I have to remember it until i get the time to do it. This blog has been left stagnant for like a month? I got to force myself to do this personal stuff before going back to work again.

Life is peaceful for 6 months from the previous place that I have worked. Now I am posted to a place where I am not so disturbed but yet able to plan my time to finish what my clients has requested me to do. No entangled by phonelines, and handphone and walk in customers. Bleh..

Yesterday a client just broke my record, I got my first dressing down by a client for like 6 months from HSR, however i felt peaceful and there is not once in my life that I didn't feel the urge to retaliate any abusive words thrown to me. I am like normal and it feels like part and parcel of everyday life. I was delighted that how that client phrased his words and I really learned alot from this. How to get "good service" from people. Lol...

Tuna is good, and great, look out for it!

Crazy and spending alot, well that is mostly about me recently, gotta sleep more and spend less yah! :D Oh yeah go see Iron Man! It's worth the ticket's value. Interesting yah!

Lastly, enjoy the ride in life and maybe follow the flow but just keep your eyes towards the light in front, well sometimes ride towards the light if you see it and if you don't, don't block the rest that sees it but confusing them that they are having hallucination....take care to the occasional soul that has wandered to this blog...

- Synn

Finding Passion

2008-04-10T14:49:00.000+08:00

I was looking deep inside to find what exactly I want, the opportunity found me however I am still thinking if this is really what I wanted to do or should I go back to where I was previously. I seriously search my heart and memories. Where did my goals lie and what should I be doing to create results.

Thanks to Changchun that i get to know some great people yesterday. Eric Feng, which is the person which coached me for about 2 hrs in SMU yesterday in his seminar "How to be a human magnet" It is an interesting course and i bet i will never learnt what i have learnt by myself in the future. The course is interesting with an "extra dose" of humor. I learnt that what i have gained in this two years is not sheer luck and effort. It is what buttons I have pressed.

It made me look back and thank that friend which has made such a change in my life and I really thank her for slapping me awake. It is in this rainy season that I will think of her and it sometimes made me moody for a while to realised that she is no longer around in this world. I am sure that she is enjoying her freedom from the physical body that bonded her to his world.

Thanks to that I have found that I have relived again.

- Synn

Dawn

2008-03-20T07:36:00.000+08:00

The first light of the sun shines on me today...
I have been thinking for the whole night...
What have I done...?
Unfortunately I knew it very well this time...
It is my fault...

- Synn

Light

2008-02-20T18:48:00.000+08:00

Light is something that alot of people is looking for...

"Light at the end of the tunnel"

Perhaps I am also looking for the firefly in my world, waiting for the light to appear in front of my eyes. Waiting and waiting...Walking on this unlit path, it is a path that is unfamilier to me, totally strange, and i'm walking on this path without knowing where it leads me to, and hopefully it will bring me to where I want to go.

I am quite lost recently due to the events that happen in my life, to a stage that I'm wondering if I have made a mistake in making friends, or I have made a mistake knowing some people. I even wondering if I am doing the right things in the first place. Am I really as good as I thought myself to be? Am i walking too fast??

"You are walking too fast, and neglecting everyone that is walking with you, you are well ahead but alone..."

Was chatting on msn and I am given this words...am I struggling to find the light to my destiny? I know what I want and I know what I am striving for...however how many things do I have to sacrifice while I attain what I want. Even if I have attained what I wanted, will I be happy or contented with what I have lost? Perhaps after gaining what I wanted, I will cherish what I lost but it is already too late.

Therefore, I have decided to slow down my pace, and catch up with my friends, with my group of friends. I don't want to lose them, and I don't want to be alone when I feel I am successful in something. I might be a good for nothing now, but I won't be one in the future...perhaps I will be a good for nothing in the future. in any case I will be happy...working a job and earning a humble income...I will see light...and not endless pursuiting...

Hikari...

-Synn

Far Away

2008-02-16T20:37:00.000+08:00

There is a few things that rocked the world living my life as serene as always...all these happened far away from my life. Recently the sex scandal of Edison Chen leads the way, the topics filled all table talks and gossips. Most of the chats leads to the news for Edison Chen and a fellow blogger has a great collection of the photos for the unfortunate starlets that is involved. Some risking cancellation of weddings to divorces and forcing the main protagonist dropping a latest movie.

Raising concerns in internet security is something that is invisible to alot of people, and practising good habits to prevent such a thing is something that is inevitable.

It is another spending on PS3 game, this time it's the 4th installment to a famous series named devil may cry...Fantastic game that kept me glued to the screen for 5 hours in a row...it has been a long time since I played a hack and slash game...and I must say this is one of the best that I have played so far in my life...interesting...

Enjoy everyone!! Chinese New Year is still around!!

-Synn

Work Work...

2008-02-06T08:37:00.000+08:00

Work Work!

This is what describe me basically...Full of Work and when I get home...it's SOOOO LATE!!!
Anyway finally got a chance to come here and blog blog~~

Anyway I don't know what to blog today...HAPPY Chinese New Year!!!

Abuse...Love...

2008-01-11T18:04:00.000+08:00

I am thinking about mutation the other day and I was introduced to a friend's problem...A level of love which is introduced to escapism and in reality it turns the table on her...I was quite shocked when I heard the story, but I was not the person who gets the facts out of the horse mouth...however even if I am the 8th generation from the source of the information....I believe I will still be very very disturbed...

Why does the word mutation linked in this instance...The whole incident started with love...love from the parents and love from the man...and the woman is stucked in between a complicated incident which threatens to divide her into two halves. She has to escape...she has no way to escape...she has a plan...and she has to use this plan to plan an escape...and never did she expect...the problem will grow after a few years...

She is abused...with all human rights seized...trapped in confusion...slapped with curfew, and worst, stripped of her freedom. She is simple, however she has to face a complicated problem...Her married life went from bad to worse ever since I heard the story...I was shaked by it...disgusted...and even wish I have the power to save my friend from such a circumstances...however reality is cruel...I am no superman, I am no hero...

Mutated Love...
Changed...

"What is the only thing that is constant throughout the years?"
The answer is "changes"

Throughout the years everything has changed, nothing remain constant, what is once right is now wrong, well not everything changed some change little, some change much...some changed beyond recognition...some changed inside...however changes is always there...changes don't stop and changes is constant. There is constant changes, if we are to live in this world, we must constantly be changing to fit into the huge jigsaw puzzle in this world....To fit in "The wheel" as described in the "Wheel of Time"...

Anyway I hope my friend will be released from her nightmare...
Be Strong, and Light Will Rescue You From This Darkness...

-Synn

Listen...

2008-01-10T18:58:00.001+08:00

Wondering if anyone has seen Mushishi...a japanese anime which explores the mystical organisms named mushi...micro organism that only the selected few can come across and get in contact with them...

"People who listens more, gain wisdom"

I found that I have not been listening...I have been deaf...
Alot of people who is reading this may be thinking that...I should have known this long time ago...I believe i needed someone to slap me awake...and that person appeared infront of me...and he slapped me awake...

I believe I have woke up from my dreamland...and be serious about alot of things...
The time is now....

- Synn

Listen...

2008-01-10T18:58:00.000+08:00

Public Relations

2008-01-06T17:56:00.000+08:00

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Edward_Bernays

I was quite amazed by the amount of information that is stored in Wayne's Head. He must have read alot. What he said in a "La Tao Huay" session is strongly affixed into my mind. His persistence in his ideals, and also the way he sees the situation happening in the design industry here.

The topic that was brought up and reminded by Cheemun was this person named Edward Bernays. I was looking around the internet and suddenly this person strikes me and I actually went over to google and check this person out...."The Father of PR - Edward Bernay". I forgot to ask Cheemun about the spelling of this person, and ended up with searches like "Albert Bernau, Albert Bernaoau, Edward Bernao etc...". Looks like I am desperately in need for hearing aids. Anyway it is inspirational to read about what this person did in difficult times and do things that people think is impossible...

- Synn

Decision Making

2008-01-03T19:59:00.000+08:00

What a topic...
Everyday we make decisions, however at times we end up not making one...
And it ends up with having the problem still wandering in the mind...
Was talking to a friend and he was sharing this idea to me...

How about you take don't know from your life...
Or find a time that you say Yes or No clearly...
Or find a time that you say Good or Bad...

No more ambiguious answer...
"Hows everything?"
"Like that lor..."
Irritating....

lol

Anyway I was sharing with darling...and i seems to have angered her...
Sorry Darling! Seems that I am too excited to share what I have learned today...
Hope that she sleeps well...

Goodnights

- Synn

What is Your Level? What is My Level?

2008-01-02T21:01:00.000+08:00

http://disgaea.jp/3/

I was wondering if I was possessed...I am obsessed with leveling in this game...
I am obsessed with leveling and then reset it back to zero (reincarnation)
Then Level Up again....(rinse and repeat)

Well...leveling in virtual world or reality is quite different
I believe I am also obsessed with leveling in reality...
Sounds interesting...

- Synn

Happy New Year!

2008-01-01T09:04:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year Everybody!!
Sleepy....

- Synn

Getting Over

2007-12-24T23:51:00.000+08:00

Getting Over Something is sometimes not easy to do when the memories is deeply rooted in the mind. Sometimes it requires tremendous effort, just to forget something, when ironically you forget something effortlessly when you need to remember it...

A movie that I personally rated 4 stars out of 5. Why i say that...i should say after watching a few movies that is more or less the same...I think that changing my taste for movies sometimes is not...a bad idea.

A show which I guess will stay in my mind for a long time...A quite a nice approach to tell a story. A story that make alot of people relate to personal experiences in the past.

A flim directed by Wong Kar Wai which is 王家卫. A director from Hong Kong which is renowned for his artistic movies. Well...i guess that rings a bell when i was on my way up to the theatre...My mind seems be sleeping throughout...

Merry Christmas my readers...If there is any...

-Synn

Reflection

2007-12-23T01:06:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i feel the need to understand,
Sometimes I feel the need to realise,
Sometimes I feel the need to think,
Reflection...

I have been very busy...
I forgotten alot of things, I should say I sacrificed alot of things...
I have exchanged things that is deared to me the future...

Lately I have been thinking,
I have sacrificed too many things around me...
It is time to make amendments...

I was sitting alone in riverine yesterday...
I was thinking about my life...my future...my values...my philosophy
I am confused...I have traded things...but am I truly happy?

I made people happy however the one dear to me is not...
I solved the problems of many however the one dear to me is not...
I made money so I am happy however the one dear to me is not...

Balance...
It is quite a hard thing to do...

I am again quite confused...
quite down...
feeling left out...

- Synn

Sight

2007-12-16T06:13:00.000+08:00

I like my sight...
I can see things that brings me a variety of emotions...
It brings meaning to life as the information of the world surge through my nerves...
To the Brain...
To my Body...

I like my sight...
I can do things whatever I like, and it brings me accomplishment...
It brings meaning to life as the sense of satisfaction surge through my nerves...
To the Brain...
To my Body....

- Synn

Locked, Isolated...

2007-10-08T05:58:00.000+08:00

I was like in this picture in the past. Locked away in my own world.
A fish that is looking out at the fish bowl...helplessly...
I lived in an enclosure of satisfaction...
I was satisfied that this life of mine is the best...
The world outside seems to be dark...
Seems like a storm is brewing...
I didn't want to experience the storm...
I feared...
The word Death seems to large...
I will forever be isolated in my bowl...
Swimming around aimlessly...
Surviving...Forever...
Oh i hate this...

-Synn

Dreams and Goals

2007-08-26T10:24:00.000+08:00

I was in a class yesterday and we come to this part which they were talking about dreams and goals. Well, i have dreams and i have big dreams. Dreams that may seem incredible and unrealistic right now. I had the difficulty to visualise my dreams in the first place. I have a vague but uncertainty that I can achieve it.

The seminar made it very clear that each of these dreams can be achieved with we make it smaller, smaller and smaller. So that each time that we try to achieve the smaller dream we will achieve the final dream in time. Also it sets a clear path to enjoy the journey towards your dream.

"Alot of people is only interested in the destination, but forgot to enjoy the journey"

I forgot where I saw this before, but it made a deep impact in my own ideas and beliefs. I had thrown everything I know about money, everything I know about the nature of the world. Finally i find myself at a point higher then the past. I was puzzled, i mean i have lost knowledge and yet with this new stuff that I have learned for the past 3 months with a different groups of people and friends, brought me to a place that is much higher that I can imagine.

I was only interested in the destination, but today I have also grown passionate about the journey. The hard and cold journey, sometimes walking alone, sometimes there is no light, no stars or moon to guide me. I know that if I just do it, I will achieve what I want. I am moving so steady that I cannot imagine that I am really doing it. The exercise about not complaining about anything for a week, allows me to really understand the dangers when you put your sub-consious mind into a state of angriness.

Finally I will have to express my most gratitude to my girlfriend for this 3 diffcult time of mine, I promise that I will achieve one quarter of my final dream by end of this year. Watch me everyone, I will do it....

-Synn

Anime Downloads

2007-08-19T01:03:00.000+08:00

http://www.animenewsnetwork.com/news/2007-08-03/singapore-anime-licensor-pursues-illegal-downloaders

Allow me to quote from the above link

"Odex, one of Singapore's leading distributors of Japanese animation, has begun sending warning letters to parents of users who allegedly downloaded anime without authorization. Odex has been asking parents to discuss their children's behavior with its representatives, and in at least some cases, pay fines of as much as 3,000 Singapore dollars (about US$2,000). Odex's lawyers meet with each person who receives a letter, and decide on the scope and extent of any penalties. Under Singapore law, "willful and significant" downloading of illegal content is a crime punishable by a fine of up to 20,000 Singapore dollars (US$13,000) or up to six months in prison. Some of the anime Odex has licensed include Fullmetal Alchemist, Bleach, D.Gray-man, and Monster. "

I am deeply sadden by the fact that starhub is providing information to odex to pursue anime fansub downloaders. It deprived my weekly dosage of bleach. I will want to make my comments known to everyone who is reading my blog. Firstly, I must agree that odex should start to do something about this, because their company is getting like less profit due to copyright.

HOWEVER, odex i really wish that you guys wake up your idea. I didn't get any quality stuff from you guys. I really wish to purchase anime. I am willing to pay for quality animes from sunshine plaza. At least they are imported from Japan and is of DVD quality and it is fantastic. Let me quote someone from here.

"i dun think it should be covered under it. UNLESS a specific company in they country LICENSED that show and that they are release the shows (HI-Quality) at a constant RATE. But for this anime saga, The company involved (ODEX) aren't releasing what they supposely is licensed to at constant rate with Quality but are doing it in a slow and LOW quality pace. It's not really fans fault for downloading. Fans support animes directly in others ways such as buying figurines, merchandice such as clothes, handphone straps (ORIGNAL ONES FROM KKMN/LATENDO at SUNSHINE PLAZA, NOT THOSE FAKES SELLING AS COMIC CONNECTIONS/TENCHI) and anime magazines(ex: Dengeki Daioh, Megami from Kinokuniya). It should be seen that out fans here are more then willing to pay for quality good etc... Most pple who have already stopped downloading still received the dreaded letter due to the records logged in previous months...is this even fair?"

I believe that the company who licensed the anime should do something about distributing the anime at a constant rate or even release them fast...and High quality...why do I want to watch their version of anime at VCD quality when I can watch them in Hi-Def as a download from the net. Please enlighten me on this...I mean this is pissing me off...I love anime...and I believe that the anime industry in Singapore is a direct compliment from TV, starhub cable TV and fansub download groups and NOT from such companies who licensed the anime to distribute. The reason why their VCD sell is because of reviews from people who DOWNLOAD or watched them from TV or Starhub Cable...come on...the downloads DO help ok...and you guys are sending them out by boxes with extorbitant prices..why should I buy Naruto Box 1 at over 50 bucks when i can get it from Sunshine Plaza at last then 30 bucks...and It's DVD...who cares about VCDs nowadays....

-Synn

Anything

2007-07-30T00:21:00.000+08:00

I wanted to do a reply to my darling's blog straight away after she posted her "watever" drink. Oh well I bought "Anything" to go with it but I was blocked with alot of work to post it straight away until after all the busy things has been over.

Anyway this is the entry to reply to :P

http://goldensummer.multiply.com/journal/item/17/Colourful_monday

Lol....just a joke...I hope that she will see this LOL!!!

-Synn

A Birthday BBQ

2007-07-29T03:33:00.000+08:00

I'm sitting in my girlfriend's house writing today's entry...firstly...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAWN!

I'm thinking about today's bbq...it's quite nostalgic. Seems like the bbq i had years back with my secondary schoolmates, whom almost all I have forgotten. Well it was a grouping of new friends for now. A bbq...

BBq...maybe it is because i have never had a really good bbq in my life...well perhaps it is because there is never a bbq that is really fun in my life...i was laughing today, smiling and socialising, but it was never...fun...

I never really ate in bbqs come to think of it...it was never once that I really ate until I throw up or something. Today there were things that i was pissed off with, and also things that made me laugh truly...and also a negative demostration of Mario Kart DS with changchun and his gf...Throwing turtle shells backwards? Rings a bell to me...and it's really something that I have never done for a long time...it made me...wanted to go back to NDS for a while...maybe I will try to get rid of the old one and get the Lite version next...

I never have money for such stuff anyway...

Well it is truly something ironic in my case. Hopefully in my new career I will be able to afford that luxury.

Alwyn tells me that he is going to get a mazda 3 soon. I told him that next time I will want a ride in that and perhaps I will get something and we can go "eat wind" sometimes...together, drifting along roads on high speed...that is something interesting for a change...

I am really scared a high speed corners...perhaps at that stage which i am in control of the car...i will be as calm as if I am playing ridge racer 7 on the PS3...not forgetting that the TV is like 46 inches and i am in a comfortable seat...well~ I think too much i guess...LOL.

Did I mention that Changchun has a cute girlfriend? To add it up...she has a kawaii NDS lite full of decorations...there is a question about Changchun and Shawn....who look younger...i guess no one can answer that question for a long time...well...I think that shawn look younger...i didn't say another at that moment of time...perhaps...just because I want to keep quiet...

Pictures will come later in my multiply...perhaps after I have an account up and running...for now just enjoy the words...

Ja ne! (Japanese)

- Synn

Heart to Heart Talk

2007-07-26T01:54:00.000+08:00

Communication is a wonderous thing. Why do I feel that way you may ask. Without communication, nothing can be conveyed from one person to another (other then the person has 6th sense). I was thinking about it alot. About what is happening to my life and to the people around me. I see activities, i see alot of activities. I see money being earned, and why am I still stucked getting my paycheck instead of seeing commissions with tens of thousands of dollars. Frankly speaking, even if I say that i'm numb to such sights because of my stay in a real estate agency, I still feel a slight jealousy.

However, it comes with a great price and on the other hand again, is "HOW YOU SEE IT". I found out that I have been using this phrase excessively. Maybe because of my friends, they are using this quite often to me as well. Oh well, tens of thousands of dollars...that sounds too good to be true but the agent has so many hidden costs that i began to feel that..."HEY, wait a minute", i mean is that ten thousand dollars enough to pay for all those things?

I had a chat with this friend which is a property agent. She earns $70,000 last month in commission and she has a cost of about $30,000 on marketing materials, ads etc...Well that is a hell lot of money gone....And considering she has a family and owns a car and still paying for her condominium....seems like it's never enough. Bad luck if she didn't make any sales and still have to commit to such a high overhead...I felt my balls shrink...I have not had such high overheads before and I'm already struggling to keep myself afloat, if not worse, in debts.

Interesting....

I was talking to Changchun about attitudes just now and he was talking about the term "responsibility". From spiderman movie, "With Great Powers Comes Great Responsibilities". I don't know what made him preach so much about the word responsibility. However, I felt that this made something in my heart gushes out and maybe it may be the key to unlock my inner chains. I mean I have been chaining myself with invisible locks, coming to think of it. I mean I am constantly constrained by everything...

Fear....

Fear of Failure? Fear of Success? I don't know. I believe my sense of fear comes from "losing friends"....

Well I felt that i grown stronger mentally lately, and i believe I'm the right track to success...

-Synn

Mathematics Horror....

2007-07-16T03:10:00.000+08:00

I have been doing alot of Maths...I believe i have never did so much maths in my schooldays about 10 years ago. It is a nightmare...i mean maths has never cause me so much terror back then then i feel now. I am actually motivated to do it lately...I am glad that i took my maths classes seriously back then...oh well lol..

:P btw, due to the recent property boom, work is terrifying as well. I had never see so many people eager to print things for publicity in my shop before. I am like serving clients madly lately. I was like, hold your horses mate...i believe I made alot of people feel that I am not serious in my job just because I delayed their things abit...

Made me quite sad when there are clients that tell me that...I am doing work non-stop to earn such remarks from them...god damn it...but i am not angry. If fact I am thankful to the individuals who made the remark, and because of that I can plan my time better and to satisfy more peoples' needs. It is a good feeling to see all the works done. I found that the limit that i have reached 3 months ago is not my limit. I exceeded that limit by a mile.

I was surprised...also depressed. I found that I have been wasting my time thinking that that was my limit. I should have continue to work and trying to exceed that limit instead of staying in my comfort zone.

Last but not least I love You Darling!!..

-Synn

Blinded By Sun Rays..

2007-07-08T21:53:00.000+08:00

Don't think that I have forgotten about my blog...I am really finding time to write and also to update everyone about my life. Basically, i am leading a life right now that i never thought possible. Everyday is productive and I am actively working towards my goal. A goal that i never thought possible accomplishing so early in my life. I am thinking so much about life, and thinking so much about what is possible. Yet, I procastinated, i waited too long. At the age of 25 this year, i began to panic about my future. I began to panic about providing to her...

I discovered the fact that I am lazing around previously, and although I thought that I am working very hard, but in reality I have accomplished little. To put it in a harsh way, I am wasting my life away. I feel so ashamed of myself, I tell everyone that I wanted to work hard, and yet this is what I am doing? I felt sick thinking about it...god damn it! What the heck am I doing....

A ship is safe when docked in a harbour, but that is not what a ship is built for!

I am not giving her alot of time, but i will try my best to giving her the attention which she so desirably seeking. I wanted to show her that, I will be able to provide to her what she will want so much in our lives. I wanted her to have the best, to be able to shop without much limitations. I felt so angry when i didn't have time to accompany her to the saloon, or when I didn't have time to enjoy Great Singapore Sale with her.

But all of this will be over, I will make sure that I will be able to accompany her to the saloon in the future, and we will enjoy the Great Singapore Sale together next year...

Thanks to everyone who is helping me along the way to attain what I am seeking...

It is such a wonderful thing to see everyone fighting alongside with me. I will fight and we will one day remember the day that we fight together, ah what a great feeling...

-Synn

Being Loved

2007-05-13T22:34:00.000+08:00

It was a week of super duper busy days. Why do I said that? It is because there is so many things to do and until now I am still experiencing the life where everything is last minute. I had so much to do and there is more work for me to finish within datelines. It is like datelines within datelines. Urgh, starting to hate what i'm doing now...

Luckily I have an understanding gf, she looked sad when i tell her that I am going to be busy from now on and may not have much time for her, but i can still afford a sunday for her when we can be alone to enjoy our own company. I must say that i have no choice, maybe i put my dream higher in position than her.

I am going all out, even if i lose all my money, i will not regret my actions today. I will continue to make my life harder and harder. No more slurging on things that is not what I need, but i badly need a laptop so i can work while doing other things like, waiting for friend's arrival lol. I discovered that i squandered away like 2 to 3 hours on saturday just waiting for people, taxi, or MRT.

LOL!

I want to say something to my Mum too..

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY...

She is so tired looking after a boy that has no future. She quitted her job that fetches her good income to look after this little boy. She looks to the sky at night and smiles in happiness when i tell her that i found a job that has no prospect. I love her and I will respect her forever.

Oh Huijun, if you are reading this, you know who you are...i bet that you are very tired. I bet that you are doing alot of things for your future. Oh yeah i bet that you will succeed since you are doing everything you can, and heaven will smile on you too.

Oh yeah Summer, if you are reading this, you have to know that in this world, everyone has a time that he/she is down in his/her own way. However, let me tell you this, you will find spring just around the corner in this cruel winter. Remember that the sun is always shining, and when you are lost, just look for the star to the north...

I am a star....

-Synn

Excitement

2007-04-29T00:56:00.000+08:00

Another Saturday has passed without an incident. I mean what is the problem with my environment, i just feel bored. I mean there is not a single thing that made me excited. Games started to get boring after a while, oh well not really a while, it was boring only after a few hours. Design used to give me so much happiness, but lately after the design horror for the Congress, it has become a nightmare.

It was rushing, pushing. Design should be done without much restriction to timeline, and should be left to be improved to the best. However, datelines has been like 1 day or even half a day. This is ridiculous, they will say that people can do it much much faster then you guys and better. Go on and look for them! Don't look for me, i had enough of such nonsensical datelines. Money is important, but i'm more concerned about my life.

Lately a fortune telling machine tell me that I will not live very long. I believe that i should start enjoying my life to the fullest. Well maybe this is just a game, but it made me realised one thing, and that is time. Time is passing us even now that i'm writing and you are reading, it is something intangible but it is truly there. Space, Time Continual...well you know what I mean....

So Folks! Enjoy while you still can, and do not spare any room for regrets.

Ciaoz!

-Synn

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杀很大！

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我不是你想像那么勇敢

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我要我们在一起

满满的爱

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Stucked

手

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